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Mannnnnnnnn.


I am so tired. My body's all warm and dizzy-ish, like I have a fever, but I don't, I'm just dead tired.


I love to sleep.

I need my beauty sleep!


I set my alarm at 5:30am this morning.


I woke up, and I stared into the space awhile as this question suddenly drifted into my mind:

Hmmm.. what should I wear today?



As I was thinking about it, sudden movements from my bed distracted me from my thoughts.
And what do you know?



It's james holding my hand.



And I expected him to lean over and smile dreamily while gazing into my eyes and say, "Good morning dear sleepyhead~..."



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But instead,

he turned over, FROWNED at me and said, "7.a.m already why are you still at homeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!"


Having heard that, I jolted up from bed chanting, "oh shit oh shit oh shit."

And called a cab. Within 20 minutes, I was already in the taxi on my way to school.

Which, by the way, costed me fucking $20. A waste of money & energy & time.



I have no idea why I was thinking of what to wear in the morning, when obviously the only thing I could appear in school in is my uniform.



And that was how my day started.


Random, I know.


But which fucking insane girl would drag her ass out of bed at a fucking insane time of 7.a.m to take a fucking $20 taxi ride to go to school during her fucking holidays?


Definitely not me.



Too bad my teacher's been calling my house up so often using O'Level threats against me T___T


Oh well.. I'm not going tomorrow anyway.
HAHAHAHA.




Okayyyyyyy.. I don't really feel like blogging anymore. =(

I feel fucking sick. My eyes hurt. My head feels really heavy. I want sleep. I want James.


GOODBYE,

I'll leave you with pictures taken just now with dear Serene~










do not be deceived by this picture, i am definitelyyyy taller than her! :P





























this is the face i like to give james whenever he doesn't let me have things my way =D












trying to act shy shy.. LOL
















we are very normal. I SWEAR!




wahahaha, TU LAN!!!~











no more funny shots.. the rest are vain obsessions :)








absolutely in love with this dress.
















xoxo jess

Human Tetris

HAHAHA. Soooo fucking funny :D


I wanna go on that show too! Japanese are crazy~

fucked

Why is it that I'm NEVER able to get things right?



Every single time I think that my life is getting better,

I'm back down in the dumps again.



Everytime I feel that we're getting somewhere in this relationship,

I'm right back to square one.



I feeeeeeel fucking suicidal.

I tried. You tried.

We know we've tried.

So why can't we work it out? It just doesn't make sense.

I'VE BEEN TRYING SO HARD FOR OVER A FUCKING YEAR TO MAKE THINGS RIGHT.



I just wanna make things right babe.

I'm sorry for all the wrong things I've done, and I just wish I could be more perfect for you.

I'd rather let it all out here on my blog than to tell you myself..

cuz I know there's just not much left to say anymore.







So if this is what he wants, and it's what she wants..

then why is there so much pain?

mixed feelings

Bahhhhhhhhh. I feel happy, yet I feel sad.


Such mixed feelings =/



Oh well. I SHAN'T BOTHER ABOUT IT ~~


I just remembered that I have to go back to school for O lvls preparation.


OMFGGGGGGGGGGG.


Gone are my holidays. WASTED T________T


So depressing. I WANT TO GO SHOPPING SOSOSOSOSO BADLY


But the good news is,


My mum's back from Pertthhhhhh! And she's bought me some really nice stuff ("v")


Might post up pics soon.


And, since I'm feeling so inspired by my previous post,


I will not waste my energy to feel irritated, upset, angry, or hurt over any lame taggers anymore.


Afterall, spammers are exactly the same as pests : You don't know where the hell they came from and how they got here, but even if you got rid of one, you can never get rid of them ALL.



So unless I'm too free, I won't reply them : I shall simply delete the tags, or ignore them. It's not quite worth my time.



I realised that I don't need to answer to any single one of you out there for anything that's got to do with my life, simply because that it's none of your business :)




How wonderful is that? I suddenly feel so relieved, cuz I don't have to feel irritated anymore.

Seems kind of silly that I used to bother about it so much...



Like what others have told me,

"Those who mind don't matter..
And those who matter won't mind"





I'm happy just knowing that there's just so much more people loving me than hating me ;)





And right now, I have something very important to attend to:


JAMES!



Hahaha he's reaching my place already :)

Finally I can cuddle him to deatthhhh again! I do miss him terribly.




Just a random post, I'll be back with pictures soon!



Byeeeeee lovers.

hairy horror

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~~...









='(

I spent $150 bucks on my hair,





which looked gorgeousss on the first day,


but by the second day the curls have already died to become waves,



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so out of utter desperation along with NOBODY'S HELP, (I did mention I suck at hair right?)

















I did this to my hair....:

















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YES.

I DID IT THE AH-MA WAY!!!


I didn't use curling irons simply because I didn't have one.


And I was soooo scared that my hair would become straight by the 3rd day.. (Because that's VERY likely to happen, when you have omfgingly-stubborn-straight hair like MINE.)


And you know what? The hair rollers that I used, was from some old, run-down shop by the back of a forgotten alley.


Which, by the way, costed me a whopping amount of SGD $2.00.





Fantastic.


I mean, it's only logical that a classic idiot like me would go ruin her $150 newly-done hair with cheapo hair rollers that cost $2 right?..









And guess what happened to my (previously)-beautiful soft curls? :(








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R.I.P nice wavy hair:







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And hello, shithead.







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WHATWHATWHAT?

STOP LAUGHING OK!!!!!! ~









Just because I have super weird hair now doesn't mean you can snigger and point at me behind the computer screen. ='(


& there's this super annoying curl that keeps sticking out of the side of my head like some bloody horn! Look at the above pic & you'll see.






Best of all, I walked around Cineleisure on a Friday evening looking like a HOOCHIE-MAMA, attracting all sorts of weird stares.


Goodbye, social-life.










I totally looked like one of those young mistresses that rich business men kept in the 1960s.
(You should have seen my outfit that day and you'd know what I mean)









In fact, I thought I looked so 1960s (with the big curly hair) that I couldn't resist doing this:






Say hello to RETRO MAMA!











....Now you know why I listen to The Eagles & The Beatles & whatnots, eh?









P.S - I'm going to get my hair done all over again this week for free, (thank god) so not that much harm done afterall :)

Just one day of Hairy Horror.

love like wavy hair.

HEEEELLO LOVERS!



Today shall be another one of those I-don't-know-what-to-blog-about-so-I'll-just-blog-anything-that-comes-to-my-mind-day.


Simply because I don't have anyone to scold, or not much to complain about. (otherwise I would, because my blog is like my ultimate ranting ground!)


Anyway. I have picccccctures as I promised!

But I'm quite annoyed with the pics, cuz they don't look nice. =(

I'm even more annoyed WITH MY HAIR!

I permed it YESTERDAY ONLY, and already the curls are alotalot less curly.. It's only like wavy-ish now.

I used to love my naturally-fucking-straight hair, but now I wish it would go away because curls & waves are my new love.



I can't believeeeeeee perming always costs about 100+ la. Like this I everytime perm sure broke liao :(


I might go for extensions next time. Shall ignore the horror stories about extensions, because like they say, "NEVER TRY NEVER KNOW."


I am soooo hopeless with styling my hair ok. Probably that's why I've never had cool hair. I look at hair wax, spray, mousse and I have no idea what to do with it. (I think it's smelly and gross also actually)

I think hairstylists are so hot because they can do wonders on peoples' head with their bare hands! (and some scissors / products la...)


I WANT A HAIRSTYLIST FOR A BOYFRIEND =DDDDDDDDDD

Then I would have omfgingly beautiful hair every single day.


AHHH I JUST INVENTED A NEW WORD.


"omfgingly"


But having a hairstylist for a BF wouldn't be all that awesome either, because imagine the amount of hairs and heads he'd have to touch. =o


Then you wouldn't want him touching you. Cuz he'd be touching..

Old women, dandruffy hair, oily scalps.. GROSS!


Just like facialists, man. I mean, can you imagine squeezing peoples' zits for a living? HAHAHAHAHAHA.





Ok ok moving on.



The hair pictures as I promised!




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WAHAHAHAHAA!

Fucking ugly, funny, unglamorous picture of me doing my hair.

Eunice took the picture~


I LOVE EUNICE! She accompanied me home straight after school, changed into my clothes and accompanied me again all the way to bukit timah to do my hair and BACK!


While I did my hair for like 3 hours, she sat there doing nothing =o

I'm soooo sorry kuku bitch, but ILU ILU ILU! So nice of her~



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..So so so?
What do you think?

Okay, so my fringe didn't change at all, I just added some body + curls. But I think I look alot better because with STRAIGHT HAIR, I look really b-o-r-i-n-g.


But curls add so much liveliness to my image! And I'm sooo happy hehhehehe.

I apologise if I'm being a little over-exicted here,

...I'm a perm-virgin. =P

(however non-virgin since like 1 day ago lalala)


I've had damn damn straight hair ALL my life and suddenly I see waves and curls on my head, it's such a nice change you know =')))









Some other new pictures taken today:

























I wonder why my hair looks so weird in pictures. Maybe cuz my hair is too little and too fine, so my camera can't capture the details on pics.. Awww =(

*kicks lousy camera and tugs lousy hair*


It definitely looks wavier and thicker real life, though. If you're wondering why the curls are small and not big, it's because my hair is soooooooo shorttttt! *emo sob*

Therefore I can only afford to do small waves.
Extensions, I'm coming for you soon, nyahahahaa.

Well, these pics should still give you a rough idea of how it looks like =D


I was going more for the wavy look than the uber-curly look because of hair's length.


Still, I like the way it looks soft and natural, unlike some girls who perm their hair and the whole thing looks really fake/frizzy/weird.


But I have damnnnn little hair man -_-


I want it to be thick & long! Then I can have big waves also.


Wahaha I am such a greedy little bitch, everything also want.


God, what's up with all my singlish today? I bet you never knew I could be like any other singaporean. HAHAHA. Talking like this: so damn bored sia. wan die liao. zzz



Random note: My eyes hurt! cuz my contacts have been on the whole damn day.


Btw I love my dueba contact lenses - they're sooo pretty. Not very comfortable though X_X



So that's ittt for the day. I'll blog again soon, because I have plenty of time, I don't plan to go to school anymore until next year. MUAHAHAHAHA!






--COMMENTS--?!

curly

Welllllllllll..


As you guys may have noticed, I havent been in a good mood recently. =(





And *he just aint making things any better. I AM SUPERRR PISSED OFF. But I'm not going to talk too much about that, so yeah..









When a girl's feeling down,


when a girl's about to cry any moment,


what does she do?



I'll tell you what a smart girl does.


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She gets her a new haircut, and goes on a SHOPPING SPREE!




Hehe you got that right.


I PERMED MY HAIR TODAY!!


Total cost me $150 fucking dollars!! And it won't even last till 2 months. Pffftttttttt.



Goodbye, beautiful straight hair :(



Hello new curls. I SO SO WANTED TO GET MY EXTENSIONS MAN!

But then all these idiots threw lotsa buckets of icy cold water on me by telling me horror stories of extensions when I was feeling so enthusiastic about it.


They're like, "extensions very hard to comb and wash your hair one leh.... extensions will make pimples grow on your head leh.."



=/

So I was like.

"Bahhhhhh! Forget it."




And went to perm my hair instead. Did the Japanese perm, as they call it. Now my hair looks like some Korean girl's hair. HOW ANNOYING!!!!!!!!!!!!


I was going for the thick, big waves look. =(

Failure.




Oh well, it still doesn't look bad at all. In fact, I'm quite happy because I think it looks sooooo much better than my previous hairstyle, even if it wasn't exactly what I was looking for.


Straight long hair is SO BORING!


CAN'T WAIT TILL MY HAIR GETS REAL THICK & LONG.

Then I'm going to experiment with lotsss of different hairstyles, hehe.




I know I know,


you want pictures right?! Hehehehe.. Ok ok.










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Sorryyy I don't have any pictures with me now T___T


LALALALA. (well I do, but they're lousy. I NEED A DIGITAL CAM DAMNIT)



Couldn't help building the suspense though. Nyaahahaha. I promise I'll post up pictures soon!



Probably by tomorrow, cos Im going on a shopping spree tomorrow :D

Me and & Jasmine are skipping school to go shopping. Talk about retail therapy ("v")



The hairstylist told me never to comb my hair, don't run my fingers through it, and don't wash it so often.





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Don't wash my hair?! But I went for a BBQ just now, and that's superrr gross. T_T

But they said if I did, the curls wouldn't last. Awww.


How am I supposed to NOT comb my hair? -.-

I'm the kind of girl who bo dai bo ji always like to pick up the comb and brush, brush, brush. LOL.


They also told me to START TWIRLING MY HAIR IN CIRCULAR MOTIONS.


So bimbotic!! Don't be surprised if you see me at bugis or town tomorrow twirling my hair like an idiot =o





Okayyyyy i'm gonna go now!


Goodbyeee my lovers.


P.S- some comments on the tagboard were really sweet. iLU TY ("v")

do you know

the past 4 months of my life has been nothing but a blur
what's real and what's not, I can no longer be sure
cause everything that I thought was the only real thing for me
turned out to be things that just weren't meant to be
and i wanted to believe you when you said that things would change
but how can I believe you when everything's still the same
it's not easy trying to convince myself that your love for me is true
this girl needs more love than just the occasional "I miss you"
i try real hard to be that girl who you want me to be
just because deep down inside I'm hoping one day you'll see
how much tears have fallen from these eyes
for all the broken promises and the lies
everyone has been telling me how silly i am
for trying to love an unfaithful man
when i start to feel discouraged i look into your eyes and see your smile
it is then i realise that everything's worthwhile
I love you as much as I did from the very first day
what I feel for you is more than feelings that would fade away
but sometimes i feel like i'm trying to hold onto a man who's already gone
it surprises me how easily you move on
guess i'll never mean as much to you as i hope i would
and if one day should you ever leave me for good
i want you to know that even if we were a thousand miles apart
there would never be a day you wouldn't have my heart
because i swore that as long as my heart beats, it would beat only for you,
even if it were broken, i know that everything i've said above is true..

~Jessica







I'm not your Superwoman,

boy I am only human..

Promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep.

lalala

AHAHAHA.

After reading all of them, I realise my previous posts have all taken the tone of a very vicious young lady :o


Wooo, I like the sound of that! Vicious, baby.


And so, today I shall make a difference - this post will be light-hearted =)



Even though I feel awful today. Woke up with this sick feeling in my gut and I knew today wasn't my day. Have been feeling like #%@^$#^ all dayyyyy.


I seem to have lost my passion for shopping recently!!!

Haven't been buying stuff. But I'm feeling the urge creeping up on me again, something tells me next week is going to be a shopping week. I'm going to get a new tote bag, new flats, new heels, new scarf, new make up, new dresses - basically new everything. I MUST!


AND, I've skipped school for 5 days consecutively. HAHAHAHAHA.

I've been going out all week instead of going to school.

My teacher called my mum up and asked her why I have been absent for so many days,

and my mum simply replied, "Oh, I broke my arm and she's at home taking good care of me.."




LOL.
I know what you must be thinking.

"Omg, what a lie!"




But it's not a lieeee. :(


My poor beloved mummy broke her arm when she fell down recently.. Awww

I hope she gets well soon cuz her arm seems to hurt alot. Meanwhile, I'm planning to bake some yummy cookies for her one of these days to cheer her up! Shall post the pics of it when I'm done with it, hopefully by next week.



My mum is uber cool. She lets me skip EVERY single day of school once my exams have finished, and she brings me out shopping instead! :D

& lets me do whatever I want (well, not really la, but almost =X)

Speaking of which, It's 9:30pm now and I'm going to Cine's KBOX later at midnight. Wooo. Went to sing K a few days back & now I'm going again. & I misshimImisshimImisshim omg.


This post is seriously turning out abit odd. I'm just typing all my mindless rantings & just whatever that comes to my head.

But you still find it entertaining, don't you?

DON'T YOU?

CAUSE YOU LOVE ME LIKE THAT! =D


I know, I keep saying that "you love me", and I probably say it so often that it's already registered in your head.








Oooh oohh you know what?

I'm planning to do a majorrr makeover for my blog :)

I want to change the entire layout, because I'm getting bored of this one.

SUGGESTIONS please?

I might also need some help, so if you're a web designer or good at coding / photoshop,

email me and I'll love you forever. ("v") Honestly.



I'll be changing the layout & stuff but I won't be changing my blog name.


I can't stand people who keep changing their blog links!!

Like so freaking ANNOYING. & then they go around screaming, "RELINK! RELINK!!!!"




Which is exactly why, I don't bother to link people. And I don't really care if others link me or not either.

I only have 4 bitchy links at the sidebar.


And why are they so special and utterly privileged?

Because they are my Bitchy Besties! :D



When YOU first came across my blog, you must be like "What the hell is underage-girl"?

And I get people asking me quite often, "What does underage-girl mean?" and "Why did you choose the name underage-girl?"



Bah. Then what, you want me to use http://www.cutiie-ang3lx-jessie.blogspot.com/?

or how about http://www.nebber-b-replaceddx.blogspot.com/!


*shudders*



Can I ask you,


what does your name mean? (I will smack any idiot who tells me their name means some ancient Greek ass thingers0

What does Jessica mean?

What does Bob mean?




Means nothing right? It's just a name, for god's sake.



I like the way it sounds, & people usually mistake me for an 18 year old when I'm only 15. And 15's underage.

Hence the name.

So nooooooooow you know.








I want to buy a good digital camera. =[


I AM SO, SO SICK OF MEDIOCRE, SUBSTANDARD, BLURRY, DIM PHOTOS!


But the moneyyyyyyyyyyyyy.. -_-

Jessica: Eh, Bernard, I'm hungry..

Bernard: Whateverrr.

Jessica: OMG YAY, BERNARD I FOUND A NUGGET!

Bernard: Eh,... So fat still eat.

Jessica: .....

Bernard: Whateverrr. ^^

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All I wanna do is find a way back into love..

accidentally in love

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Sometimes,

I feel like the biiigggeessstt sucker alive.



I can't believe it's happening ALL OVER AGAIN!



Honestly.
Seriously.
Absolutely.
Undoubtedly.






and the only thing that's able to build me so quickly and tear me down so viciously,

is love.




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Awwwww.




I mean, come on,

what's there not to love?! =) *gushes*





"There are moments when I don't know if it's real,
or if anybody feels the way I feel.."

roll out the red carpet plz

I'm so boreeeeeeed.

Wanted to blog (as in something with good material) but realised that I have no inspiration at all.


And I'm going bugis + far east later, then my next targeted destination shall be town and vivo city. I have a feeling today won't be a good shopping day though :(

I just wanna take my mind off some things..


I told them to meet me at 12.30, but it's 1:30 and I'm still at home!! And it's NOT my fault cos I'm still waiting for them at home, they are so damn slow.


Thus, boredom took over and it just so happens that..

Camwhoring is my speciality.

=D

Because technically,

boredom + camera = camwhore.











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lalalala just kidding, as if i'd really do that. XD

just happened that my tube dress couldn't be seen.












I'm hungry.

(that wasn't a caption for the photo, i really am fucking hungry.)










lousy camera =(











i kinda suck at acting cute.









i think it's about time you* should carefully think things over..







OKAY TIME TO LEAVE THE HOUSE NOW.



byebyebyebyebye!




**update**

I'm back homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

And I'm so tired. Didn't buy ANYTHING today. *it's a miracle*




At first I thought that the holidays would make me happier,

because of the freedom from stress & everything else.

But I suddenly realised that the holidays would mean that I'd have more time to feel lonely :(

More time to think about depressing stuff, more time to wallow in self pity and wondering why this, why that.



Thanks to Eunice Jasmine & Bernard I enjoyed myself today :)

At least I know these wacky friends can put a smile on my face sometimes. ("v")


I think I'm going to blog soooo much more often now that I have all the time in the world.


I keep thinking about the past, & how much things have changed.

I need a time & money machine to make me happy ='(




I really, really thought that I could get over you with a bit of time..



But now I know what they mean by,

Absence makes the heart grow fonder.

Bah.

EXAMS are fking OVER!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~~~~







I FINISHED MY LAST PAPER FOR 2007 TODAY.



WHICH WAS PURE GEOGRAPHY (supposed to be my strongest subject but i didn't revise at all so i pretty much screwed it up)










THE HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!!!!



hehehehehehe.



This is the period of time that I look forward to from the beginning of each year =D



Holiday or no holiday doesn't make as much difference to me as it does for other students, cause they actually study (at least a lil) during school period but I don't study at all. I don't feel relieved :(



Just feel happy I'm not being forced to wake up at 6fuckingA.M every morning to waste 6 more fucking hours of my life in school being bored outta my mind.



Okay la, actually my holidays haven't started yet.... =X



but now that the exams are over, it's pretty much the same isn't it? I don't think I have much use for school. Except the remedial classes for the O'levels next year.



OMGOMGOMGWTF O'LVLS.





I'm going to try to enjoy myself to the fullest,



cause next year is THE YEAR THAT EVERY EXPRESS STUDENT HATES.



Meh. Heard that O'lvl is one of the most stressful exam you'd ever take in your life, and I'd have to agree =(







Where oh where will I find the motivation and determinatino to study? Not looking forward to 2008...





But I've got so many things I wanna do for the time being!!



I want to watch movies. HELL LOADS OF MOVIES! Man, I miss the old times when I used to watch 3-4 movies a week. Who's up for a movie marathon? :)





I also want to go shoppingggg. (duh.) By the end of this week I shall come up with my MUST-GET shopping list, bwahahaha. I'm pretty sure it'd burn a hugehuge hole in my pockets.





Perhaps I'd want to work? I dunnno. =/ Hmmmmm.



I WANT TO GO TO EAST COAST PARK! I wanna ride bicycle and sit by the beach and talk cock and I wanna BBQ I wanna stay over at chalets.





The list goes on & on & onnnnnnnnnnnnnn.





Anyway, random thought:




Ever wondered how I look like IN SCHOOL? Ha. (Not a pretty sight at all)





Because all the pictures you've seen of me are of me in make up & outing clothes.



Nyahahaha. Yes, yes, you feel a sudden flame of curiosity ignite in your veins, don't you?




You're trying to imagine me now without clothes make up, I can almost feel it from here.



(But if you've seen me in person already, that's a whole different story...)




One thing's for sure, the difference is tremendous, and you'd probably be wayyyy shocked.




So do you want to see the super ugly side of me? huhuhuhuhuh?




DO YA



DO YA, DO YAAAAAAAAAA?




You know you want to see a fugly picture of me, so that you can point at me and laugh your ass off, spamming my tagboard with "KEKEKE EUUU SH0 err xin wif0ut makee-ups wor EEYERX"





Yeah.



Too bad though, you won't be able to enjoy doing that just yet :D



Better luck next time!







However, I'll be kind enough to show you how a part of me looks like in school.


















Presenting to you...







my schoolbag!


Yes, I know it's not a pretty bag, and I'm aware that it looks extremely awkward.


Oh well, what can I say? LOL.

I bought it last year, and my taste has changed alot since, so yeah. I thought the bag was really cool back then.


But obviously, I can't be arsed to spend money to buy another bag just for attending school because THAT's wasting money. Who the hell bothers to look good in secondary school anyway?


All of my friends who've seen this bag always go, "Wa, why you choose a bag with a girl having such an awful expression on her face? Why like that one?"




Actually, they don't know the true story behind this poor mistaken bag...




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The girl in the picture on my bag was originally a sweet & pretty girl,
just like any other pretty girl you see on magazines. (the bag's graphic is a magazine cover)



Except that, I decided to use her as my schoolbag, and as time went by, she mysteriously turned uglier and uglier..


I was very much puzzled at why the girl in my bag had turned so ugly,

until one fine day, I looked into the mirror examining myself before leaving for school, then


Lo & Behold!... I found my answer.


Wanna know how a sweet looking girl on a magazine cover that's printed on a schoolbag could mysteriously turn so u.g.l.y?


































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because, her face kena squashed by me every single day when i carry my bag,

and she's been smelling my armpit for 1 year already.







































































perhaps that's why she doesnt look too happy?






HAHAHAHAHAHAAA!

I am sooo good at entertaining myself.

dun dun dun x_x

Eeeeeeeeeeeeurgh.




I'm feeling whiny.

I've got math paper 1 tomorrow.

I am so tired.

Bah.

I need a hug =(








Perhaps I should smile,


because tuesday is gonna be worse.


Chemistry and Math paper 2 combined in 1 day?


F.U.C.K.E.D.









AGGHHHH.

Nevermind, I shall look on the bright side.

I bought an uber cute pink dress from Topshop and an uber cute pink bag from Coco!! (talk about pink! i smell a new obsession coming on) Costed me about 300 for two pink items =(

I forgot to take pictures of it to show y'all but I will, soon enough! =D

I think I'd desperately need a job during Dec holidays. Lobangs?!

Also bought other stuff from Forever 21! I can never walk into F21 and walk out of it without buying anything :( It's an addictionnnnn.

Shopping is the only thing that's keeping me sane!





Hmmm. Other positive thoughts?

What do exams mean? Exams mean the holidays are coming!! (That's my ONLY source of comfort recently.)

Which means I can go get my hair EXTENSIONS done very soon~ FWEEEEEEEEE. I can't tell you how much I'd like waves/curls right now. I'm getting bored of straight hair, it's so b o r i n g

I am in no state of mind to blog right now, because my mind is just going la la la la la sleep ~

BUT I CAN'T! I NEED TO READ MY LITERATURE BOOK COS I'M HAVING THE EXAM TOMORROW.

I'm quite sure the attempt to revise will be to no avail,

for the endless lines of words in the book will just turn into swirly wirly thingies as I drift off to dreamland....

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HELLO!!! =D :D xD

say hi to my bigass photo!! heeheehe.
i have no idea why i'd put such a big picture up here all of a sudden. *giggles and topples over* did i mention that it was past midnight while i posted this?

did i also mention that i'm not in a right state of mind?

hmm.

i did?

(notice my bigass fat cheeks.. zz i am getting way too chubby!! but they're tempting to pinch aren't they xD)











my tee owns your face











like my necklace? ("v")












omgomg i can't wait to go onto that thing!














HEHEHE isn't it soooooo cute. =D
i hug fluffy whenever i'm in my mums car, cos she's really soft and cute and, well, huggable.









AHAHAH. i like silly expressions.








KKKKKK gotta run now, literature-textbook calls,

SEEEEE YOU ALL! ~~~

love is like a promise,

but you never keep your promises.



















Dear diary,
when will I finally see,


that it was never really love.. and it never will be?





Dear diary,
why is it that I see,



a blinded fool as my reflection, staring right back at me..





I won't go back on my decision this time,

been trying too hard, been crying too much.



Been alone waiting for you for far too long







So goodbye my lover,

goodbye my friend..

You have been the one,
you have been the one for me.

oooh... shiny.

Hey.

I have like English Paper 1 and Social Studies papers tomorrow.

Gee I hate social studies. They fail you JUST BECAUSE you don't follow their "structure" for essay questions. Like pfft, so what if we don't follow structures, you still get our point don't you?


I am really peeved that I get low marks just because of that. AND I better write a good compo tomorrow!


Anyways, love the exams man. Just love it, I can finally have a breath of fresh air~ And exams end in just a WEEK, then I can do everyyyything and anything I want! Oh gosh, the things I wanna buy, the stuff I wanna do..


Anyway, I went to buy some nail polish and eyeliners just now, and when I reached home,
It was then I saw how *shiny* all of them are..


Which suddenly made me realise,
how absolutely attracted I am to metallics & shiny stuff!


I thought about it for awhile and also discovered that almost all of stuff that I have been eyeing on recently are either metallic, sequined or just plain shiny. For example: Been wanting to get 4 inch metallic ubershiny gold heels, 4 inch metallic ubershiny silver croc-skin heels, sequined metallic shimmery halter, ... ... ...



SEE WHAT I MEAN?! I am like obsessed. Then I took a look at my cosmetics, and almost got blinded, LOL.

Look at my gliiiiiiiiiiiiittery cosmetics!
And these are not even all the glittery/shimmery ones I have =D

OBSESSED much?

When my mother saw me taking pics of these, she was like, "SIAO AR, when you buy all these one?! You want to be how shiny leh?"

Actually, I have no idea myself, the collection just started building up by itself. That's scary.




Another make-up obsession..




METALLICS!!

I'm sure everrryyy girl can relate to this - Don't you just love how pretty make up always is?! In their cute little packaging lies secret formulas that turn fuglies into beauties.. What's there not to love.







There's nothing better than beautiful glittery make up thats also in beautiful metallic casings..... *nods*






In fact, I am so obsessed that I bought these:








WAHAHAHAHAHAAHAH!

If you have EVER seen a more shiny, more metallic, more glittery or more sequined dress,


shoot me. =D

I loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeee it.
Sequin dresses are so in right now! ~~








I'm also getting this darling!!!!

Once I decide which colour I want.



Every girl needs her own pair of sexy, killer-4inch-stilettos.



Urghhh I cant decide if I should get silver or gold, they're both awfully gorgeous, SOME HELP PLEEEEEEASE?


And,

Just because I'm obsessed with shopping and shiny things does not mean that I am a bimbo, okay?

Bimbos are vain girls without brains who do not care about anything else except their superficial bimbotic stuff, unlike me, and---

*spots a glittery object in the distance*

OoOooooOoh, shiny....


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*follows shiny thing*

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Anyway,


shopping has always been my best friend,

but recently even shopping can't cheer me up. It's become to be only a mere distraction, one that doesn't last very long.


I'm still feeling really troubled, upset, lost, lonely, confused, *insert more emo sayings here*



I just can't shake this feeling off. :(

Sigh.




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You're like a drug babe,

I never knew how dangerous you were, I never knew how vulnerable I could be to you.

And when I got a taste of having you in my life, the unbelievable rush and the happiness I felt was so relieving, so overwhelming, so wonderful.






But then just like ecstacy, those feelings didn't last forever, and just like a drug addict, I need you more than ever.







I'm nothing without you,

I'm addicted to you.



I'm just still dangerously in love with you...