I'll miss 2007.

Woooooooo it's Dec 31st now.



*takes a moment to absorb that piece of information*




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It's going to be 2008 tomorrow!

No good.




NU-UH.



*runs away*





Ok ok.
Seriously.



This sucks. School's reopening in 3 days. O levels are in a matter of months.




Looking back, 2007 has been a very very long year for me.

Extremely muthafucking long. So many wonderful times, so many bad bad times..




But it's one of those years when I can think about the past events and say this on the last day of the year: It's been a very eventful year for me, and I've grown and changed through alot of experience.








What about you? Has 2007 been a good year for you?...




Sine it's the last day of beloved 2007, I thought I'd take this opportunity to look back and post some pictures of me that most of you have probably never seen before,

and probably never will if this post didn't exist :P












From the start of 2007 to the end of 2007:







January 2007



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HAHAHAHAHAHA.

SO THERE YOU HAVE IT.



My 2007 (some very ugly) camwhore photos =D

Haven't posted up camwhoring photos in awhile.. I tried to pick out the best of the lot, I still have muchhh uglier ones.







I've changed quite alot eh! I keep changing alot within a short period of time, especially since 2005.



And you know what they say, a new year means new beginnings..







So here are my New Year Resolutions for 2008! (these are the only I can think of):




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1st new year resolution:

Try not to fall asleep in class so much, pay attention & put in effort to score well







I've been sleeping sooo much in class!


If there ever was an award for the most amount of sleep attained in class, I would have gotten it, hands-down.



There's just something about the sound that the fan makes as it turns and turns above your head, while your teacher goes on & on about volcanoes and rivers, and you see the bored expression on everyone's faces..


I wish I could fall asleep that fast when I'm lying on my bed at night.






As much as I wish to believe that I'll study very hard for my O levels next year,


it's quite predictable that the moment I get the books in my hand, I'd be like











Mmmmmhm.

No doubt about that.



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2nd new year resolution:

Change myself to be a very, very sweet and polite young lady that everyone will love.



I want to be a different girl! I'm tired of being such a bitch!


I don't wanna scold vulgarities anymore. Even if I have to say SHIT, I'd say it like sh*t. You know? It sounds so much more courteous.








I'll be so wonderful, that I'll give a genuine, sweet smile to every single person I meet!





Yay. Then everybody would love me because I'm so nice and shit. Oops, I mean sh*t.



I will never ever blog about controversial stuff again, because that might offend people. And I wouldn't want that, would I? And I won't criticize others, I'll thank people for copying me...




I want everybody to love me because Jessie is such a cute little sweetie pie! ^___^


People will start talking about how I've changed to be such a nice lady, instead of the loudmouth I used to be.



YAY! Kekekeke. Don't you guys like me so much more now?


All you blog readers will go gaga over my loveliness.



Oh god, I'll be such a sweet, quiet and innocent girl for 2008.... =)




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NOT.






Ahahaha

I am so bad at new year resolutions.





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HAPPY FUCKING NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!!!

sucks to be an ant

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Lololol.

Somehow, conversations with William are always fairly amusing.







I have sooo much stuff to blog about but I just don't have the time. BAH!

Anyway, HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!




Not much to say about it because I don't want 2008 to come.




Have fun on New Year's Eve anyway ;)


I'll be going to watch the pretty pretty fireworks!! <3

fat bitch :(

I find my interest for photography growing.


It's fun to surf photography forums :]


You get to see really cool pictures & you can learn alot more! (if you're interested la.)




Found this photo while surfing:




(photo taken with permission of thread starter)





HAHAHA. Supppppppppppper funny & cute plz!


Yup, that's a photographer covered in thick layers of foam. (the event at Tanglin Mall)



Soap only what! Scared what? Nothing can bring this photographer down =P



Geez, the things one does to pursue the things they love... (photography, for that matter)




I love Canon cameras!


I WANT A CANON CAMERA!!!!!!



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Okok I have to stop my mindless ramblings & prepare to go out now, I'm meeting Jasmine the act cute bitch later.

Going to Far East to change a dress that I bought on Xmas Eve, stupid ah lian shop girl from Zimple gave me the damn bloody wrong size!



Before I bought the dress, I asked to try on a sizeM for the grey dress I was eyeing.

Then the ah lian shop girl went like, "nono! size M is super huge la, take size S, alot of people cannot wear M coz it's damn big. you should try size S"


And I said, "ok."

So I took size S to try.. and Hey Presto!

Fits me p-e-r-f-e-c-t-l-y. Of course I'm damn happy la. (which means I'm not THAT big-sized afterall)



So I bought the grey dress and another pink dress (both size S), and everything was good until I reached home and put them on again..




Then I realized, that stupid ah lian shop girl gave me a fucking size M for the grey dress!!!!!!!





Which, I know could be a humble mistake, but what makes me pissed off was the fact that she kept emphasizing how abnormally huge size M is, persuaded me to get size S, THEN SHE GAVE ME A BLOODY SIZE M TO TAKE HOME.





You know what that means?


THAT MEANS SHE'S TRYING TO SAY THAT I AM BLOODY FAT!



Normal skinny girls can't wear size M cos it's too big, only fat bitches like me can!!



SO I NEED A SIZE M!!!!! *cries*






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Fat bitch here is going to Far East to find ah lian shop girl to slap her with my fat ass now,
then I'll change it to a fucking size S to make myself feel better.




Byebye.



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pms

I seem to be on "permanent PMS" mode.




How do I get rid of this feeling? I have no idea. Seems like just not too long ago I was perfectly happy, and all of a sudden, I felt that something wasn't right in my life and ever since I've been feeling quite shitty.





Some days feeling suicidal, other days just feeling.. *blank*







I don't really know where the problem lies. It's just that there's always this sick, dreadful feeling in my guts, and it won't leave me alone. What does it want from me? What am I supposed to do?






On normal days, binging will do the trick for me - I just have to have a nice hearty meal and I'll feel alright in no time.




But recently I don't even have the appetite for normal meals.




And usually I end up taking it out on James, which results in more quarrels, quarrels and quarrels. And to make it all worse, it's become obvious that he's getting really sick of it.








Bah.


Sometimes, I honestly feel like I've had enough of this relationship with James.






Not because I don't love him anymore, I still do - very much. But because I'm starting to become very aware that he's not really the guy I believe him to be..





And that's not his fault.



It was never his fault. It was my fault for not being able to see things the way they actually are, instead I chose to pin hopes on my fantasies.





If he makes the same mistake again, I can't say I'd be surprised.





I think it's time I should realize that I can't change a person's character to suit my liking, rather, the person should willingly change himself.






And for that to happen, he needs to understand.







He needs to understand why he needs to change, and the consequences of not changing, etc..

Which, of course - won't be anytime soon.





We're just too different :]






But every single time I feel like giving up, this quote always pulls me back -



"Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all their heart."






You know, having to worry, facing the lies, accepting the broken promises, etc - all for over a year..



Sometimes it's more than a girl like me can handle.


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I just really want things to get better quickly.



If I could ignore these feelings, I would.



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Feels like I'm falling in an endless black pit...
But I try my best not to let it show.

bitch

So, what, am I not supposed to have an opinion?

Should I keep quiet just because I'm a woman?

You call me a bitch, 'cause I speak what's on my mind

Guess it's easier for you to swallow if I sat and smiled.

When a female fires back,

Suddenly the target don't know how to act

So he does what any little boy would do

Makin' up a few false rumors or two.

That for sure is not a man to me, slanderin' names for popularity

It's sad you only get your fame through controversy..

But now it's time for me to come and give you more to say.

- can't hold us down.






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I call myself & my friends a "bitch" as a joke.


However, it amuses me to no end whenever other people call me a bitch, and expect me to feel insulted by it.





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Am I a bitch just because I like to rant and whine on my blog?





Am I a bitch because I am financially capable of indulging in superficial, materialistic pleasures and enjoy blogging about them?





Am I a bitch because I am basking in the attention that others give me?





Am I a bitch because the opinions that I blatantly state in my blog are so very different from your own?





Am I a bitch because I know my flaws and have no problems accepting them?





Am I a bitch because I am aware of my desirable attributes and allow them to be part of my self-confidence?





Am I a bitch because I use my command of the English language to my advantage while rebutting others, thus resulting in more vicious and effective insults?





Or am I a bitch just because everything that I say is not pathetically sugarcoated in favor of seeking your approval?




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If so, then...

Hell yeah,

I AM A MOTHERFUCKIN' Bitch,

WITH A CAPITAL B.





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That aside, some of you asked me to blog on how I spent my Christmas.

Sorry to disappoint, but I do not have cool pictures of glamorous parties and clubbing nights to share =P

I don't enjoy going clubbing and shaking my ass a little bit here and there, I find it quite lame actually.

Aren't you supposed to have ample space to move your body around when you dance?

If you're telling me to PAY to go to some overrated, overcrowded club in the middle of the night to rub my crotch against random sweaty strangers, well then, no thank you.

I can jolly well play some music in my nice comfy room and rub my crotch against James.

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Christmas eve - Went out with my friends in the afternoon, had lunch, joked around, did some shopping, then went to look for James & played some lame games at the arcade (I'm such a kid) and we had dinner, then headed over to a BBQ with James, ate again (I'm also a pig) and spent our midnight lying by the beach in each others' arms, with the wind blowing in our hair, smiles on our faces and hearing people around us shouting, "MERRY CHRISTMAS!"

The next day I spent the day home with James and did what people usually do when they're bored - pillow fights in the bedrooms, watching DVDs, etc..

So yeah, that pretty much summarized my Christmas.

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I am sooooooooo looking forward to New Year's Eve, because of the PRETTY FIREWORKS!!!

...Time doesn't fly, it fucking teleports.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Wooooooooooo it's 12am now!


It's only the 24th though. =P


But I don't think I will be blogging on Christmas Eve's night, so yea, who the hell will spend their Christmas reading my blog anyway? Hahaha. (*cough cough if you are*)



I got $500 from mum as my Christmas present. And I got a weird dancing toy lion from James. HAHA.




Does anyone remember my posts about how much I'm not a fan of god?


I'm going with James to Church tomorrow. LIKE OMFG!




You're more likely to find me in Mars than in a church, on normal circumstances. Bah, but it's Christmas, so I don't wanna be a killjoy for my baby~



Although cringes from me are to be expected tomorrow, as they start to speak of their wonderful invisible saviour..





Alrighty, I'm gonna go now cuz I woke up super early for a shoot this morning, and I have to wake up at the godforsaken-hours-of-6am tomorrow for another morning shoot. DAMN, do I hate morning shoots.

But the money is always appealing :)




Weeee, this is the 2nd year I've been spending birthdays, christmas-es and new year celebrations with James!


Unexpected much. I don't really wanna think of what will happen next year though.. Somehow I wish time would stop right here, right now.



Christmas Eve - best fucking day of the entire year.






Alright, I'm gonna go for real now.





~ ** !!MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!! ** ~





Have fun, party hard & don't forget the condoms ;)

christmas is in 3 days!!!

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.




Christmas is in 3 days! That's super fast.


Superrrrrrrrrr fast. Because 5 days after Christmas, it's the end of 2007 and aloha 2008.



*runs around screaming*






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PREPARED FOR



O'LEVELS NEXT YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!










Do you know what O'levels mean?


O LVLS = goodbye social life =(





I don't wanna say goodbye to my fun yet. WTF.

And after all that fucked up studying and stupid exams that begin with the letter O, next thing I know I'm going to poly already. Then what? After poly, work liao?






NO FUCKING WAY~


I'm still a kid!!!!!







Or at least, sometimes I really do feel like one =D

I am but 15 years old.



I can STILL call myself a kid. But I'm not so sure if I can do that 2 years later..




I don't want to sit for O levels. Poly is fucking retarded, no way I wanna go there. And I never want to work =(




MAYDAY!




I need to find an old filthy rich angmoh to marry like RIGHT NOW, so I can inherit his fortune when he dies a few years down the road.




And THEN I will run away with all his money and find a cute chap to flirt with, and after some flings I'd probably find a handsome loving amazing angmoh who will marry me and then I'd live happily-ever-after with my cute angmoh children.






Which sounds like my perfect life plan, except for one tiny problem: Whatever happened to James?



Hmm.. Good question :P

Hope he doesn't read this. The handsome amazing loving angmoh husband and adorable angmoh kids do sound very tempting though.




I cannot stand Singaporean kids!



BRATS, all of them. I have this uncontrollable urge to smack them everytime they misbehave. I don't get why Singaporean kids are unsociable demanding little devils as compared to angmoh kids.




Of course there are angmoh little devils too, but then again, they're so damn bloody cute that they seem more like angels then devils :]



Probably the kiasu & unhealthy upbringing in Singapore causes the kids to grow up to be a little weird..














That's why I have ALWAYS wanted to live in America since like, forever.







I want I want I want.

The guys there are hotter, cuter, and they have long dicks. =P



No actually, I just like their lifestyle. The easy going type, not the uptight biatches you meet in Singapore.




FOR ONCE, I WANT TO WAKE UP IN THE MORNING, AND WHEN I STEP OUTTA MY HOUSE AND INTO THE ELEVATOR, I HOPE TO SEE MY NEIGHBOUR GOING "GOOD MORNING!" WITH A HEARTY SMILE,


and not a smelly old ah pek who will just stare at me like i am siao if i even just managed a feeble smile.







But then I'd miss the McDonalds delivery in Singapore, because I know my American friends are superfreakingjealous that I get to order McDonalds whenever and wherever I want =P



Oh yessss. The food here in Singapore is fabulous. And I'm such a glutton.






I can't decideeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!









Ok so my thoughts are running a little wild. But yes, I do miss the feeling of daydreaming all the time....




Everything's easier in daydreams.

Anyway.




Back to the topic I started off with:





C H R I S T M A S !!!







Woooooooooooooooooooooooooo.



I love Christmas man. It's my favourite time of the year.



BUT I know that sounds really contradictory because of my aethist beliefs, but whatthefuck, I love Christmas not because I like celebrating the birth of christ and all that jazz, I just like the feel.











The other time this bloke heard me exclaming, "I love Christmas!!"

And he asked me (clearly assuming), "So are you christian or catholic?"





So I replied "It's not that I love Jesus, I just like Santa..."




You should have seen the look on his face. LOLOL.









reasons why a person who doesn't particularly like jesus would love Christmas:




I love the festive, joyful feeling!!!


Christmas is at year-end, and everybody knows year-end is the time when we're all in a relaxed and good mood, and we just wanna enjoy ourselves (because we know the next year will be all full of shit again)



People start planning for holidays and parties instead of planning for work, there are smiles on faces everywhere.. It's just such a different feeling and you can really feel the lighthearted atmosphere~









Besides, you get pretty christmas decorations EVERYWHERE! It makes the whole world so, so much prettier :)













You see christmas trees with tons of pretty ornaments & wonderful surprises and presents tucked underneath,

you see amazing christmas lightings you will NEVER be able to see at other times of the year except during Christmas!

not forgetting awesome treats & cosy decos and the list of goodness just goes on & on..












Heck, I even love christmas carols!!

They are very very fun to listen to, and it DEFINITELY gets everybody into the mood :)



Come on, it just puts a smile on my face to hear this:


"Rudolph the red nose reindeer, had a very shiny nose.. and if you ever saw it, you would even say IT GLOWS!"




Hehehehehe.


I adore Christmas. It's my favourite time of the year.


I love Christmas. Have I said that already? :P


Ok, nevermind.








Just kinda sad that my family doesn't celebrate Christmas though. But then again, we're buddhists, so thats the obvious reason =(







WHAT AM I GONNA DO ON CHRISTMAS LEH?



I CAN'T THINK OF ANYTHING TO DO!




Well I can actually, I have ideas of playing in the snow and making a snowman and all, but we know that's just bullshit in singapore.








Ideas please, lovely readers. Where are you guys going for a wonderful Christmas this year? =)

roses

Don't have the mood to blog nowadays.

Not that much to blog about either..


Having mixeeeeeeeeeeeeeed emotions. I feel awful. T___T







TO BE OR NOT TO BE? That is the question.






Whenever I'm feeling upset, nothing makes me feel better than having distractions to ease the discomfort.


It's been shoots & shoots these few days.. I have 6 shoots this week!













My rose is wilting, James :(

prin-my-ass

Every little girl had dreams of being a Princess when she was younger

Then as she grew older, there came wishful thoughts of meeting her significant other

She would wear a dreamy smile on her face as her thoughts start to wander..

How one day she would meet her Prince Charming, and live happily-ever-after

Oh, how much fun they'd have spending every lovely day together

It's no surprise that little girls believe love would always last forever

Little did she know that the real world wasn't quite like her fantasy,

There was so much more that her innocent crystal eyes have yet to see

She slowly realized that real Princesses didn't have the perfect life as expected to be..

Even the late Princess Diana's short-lived status came with a fee

Still, she kept that bubble of hope in meeting Prince Charming locked away in her heart

Never expecting that one day Prince Charming would step into her life and tear it all apart.

Nobody told the girl that being in love could bring her heartbreaking pain,

Instead of happily-ever-afters, love seemed much more like a game.

Whatever happened to those stories about true love's first kiss?

Lies, quarrels and break ups are important details that fairytales missed

Tears filled her eyes the same way hope did when she was a kid,

Suddenly it all seems so very naive and silly to believe what she did..

Every little girl had dreams of being a Princess when she was younger,

and now I wish I could be that little girl I was again, just for a little longer.

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~Jessica

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is exactly how i'm feeling.











We had another quarrel last night.



Well not exactly quarrel la. He's trying to make it up to me. No matter how much I scream at him, whine, bitch, or do things to seriously piss him off, he would apologize and try to make it up to me.





Which I find abit scary cuz I've never really seen him so devoted before. LOL. I just hope he'll really really really change.





Meanwhile, I think my period's coming soon cuz I'm having serious PMS. Being a girl sucks.











See what I mean? I'm bitching about how much of a bitch I am on my blog again. I CANNOT STAND MYSELF SOMETIMES. *slaps me*











Anyway anyway.









JAMES BOUGHT PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN VCD! (or is it dvd?)





It's the 4th movie.











You can't find it on the internet, it's not out in theatres anytime soon but I get to watch it now nyehh nyehhhhhhhhhhhhh. Aren't you so very jealous?? =P







I don't even know the name of the 4th movie. LOL. But I'm gonna watch it anyway.









I thought the third movie was really pathetic. Still liked the first one best. It's always like that with movies, isn't it? Think Harry Potter, think of other movie sequels..







Usually the first is the best you'll get, and anything that follows is usually really retarded.





I liked Ocean's 13 though :)

















Right, this is getting too random.





Ok, I promised to bring pictures but I don't really have anyyyyyy cuz they're all in James phone.







SO MUCH FOR BUYING A DIGITAL CAMERA.









It runs out of battery sooo fast and I always forget to charge and so it's usually dead and useless.







I managed to bluetooth over one picture to my handphone from James, and after that my phone died on me so one picture is all you get:








Yes. That's me in the middle of the highway. XD



While we were on the way to town on James bike, the sky decided to weep so we had to take shelter under a bridge. So I sat under the bridge by the roadside of the highway and camwhored all the way. HAHAHA. People passing by must be thinking I got bored of camwhoring at home so I decided to try it at the side of the highway.




It may not look like it was raining, but the wind and rain was soooooo big yesterday. Got DRENCHED.


The reason why I looked so happy in the picture above is because it was taken BEFORE I got drenched..












So I watched Alvin & the chipmunks yesterday








WTF!!!!!!!!!!



CHIPMUNKS ARE SOOOOOOOOOOOOO ADORABLE PLZ.



I really liked Theodore in the movie, he was the cutest. The other 2 were.. cute, but annoying.





ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS AN ADORABLE TALKING CHIPMUNK!!!





I loved loved loved the chipmunk from the movie Enchanted, but I can't find pictures of him anywhere ='(











Ok ok I've had enough of ranting. But still I just have to say this one last bit...












CHECK OUT MY NEW GOLD HEELS I BOUGHT YESTERDAY!!!!!




I've been wanting a pair of nice gold heels for SO SO LONG and I finally found one that meets ALL my requirements. Fweeeeehh.


Why I love it:


The cutting of the shoe is soooo sexay, and the peeptoe part is really comfortable and cute. (some peeptoes are just so ugly)

The heel is skinny enough, metallic and it's above 3 inches.

It's very comfortable for a 3+inch heels! The grip is quite strong and the heel is sturdy enough.

The colour is absolutely fantasticcccc *____* It's super metallic and bright. (Doesnt look that bright in pictures because of my HP cam)







AND IT'S ONLY $50, HAHAHAHAHA. It's super hard to find nice gold shoes in Singapore, and I got it for so cheap yay yay yay.











My topshop flatties~


Also with GOLD!!!


I'm like super obsessed with anything gold plz :) love the velvetty material.












BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

busy & blah

Hello dearies~



Sorry haven't been blogging about good stuff much :(

Well, you can't blog about good stuff when there aint no good stuff tuh blog bout eh?





Don't really feel like talking much about it anymore.



It's like 2am now, I'm tired as heck (swollen eyes, quarrels, been out the whole day... you get the picture) and tomorrow morning I have a shoot at bedok reservoir.


Horror of horrors.


Even though I don't enjoy waking up early in the morning for shoots, but I like being busy cuz it keeps my mind off things :)


And a BIG BIG BIG DISTRACTION TO TAKE ME AWAY FROM MY WORRIES is exactly what I need right now.







So even if I have nothing to do, I plan to make myself busy so as not to let my thoughts wander negatively.


For example, I'm going to start planning where the hell to go & what to do on Christmas. Seriously, I have no idea -___________-


I WANT A CHALET / BBQ but duhhh it's obviously fully booked since donkey years ago.









Promise to update by monday~


I'm not feeling all that great, but at least I'm not feeling suicidal right now.


Thank you to everyone was concerned~






I havent been online much so didn't get to see my tagboard, and when I finally did it kinda exploded with messages.. o___o

so it's impossible to reply to all of them individually.




But it's really awfully sweet of y'all. *dramatic sniff*

Reading the MSN & Chantango msgs, tags and emails make my heart melt.





And if I could, I'd give every one of you lovelies a big big hug to show my appreciation ("v")





At least I know that if my boyfriend breaks up with me,

I still have lovely readers who won't leave me..





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....RIGHT?

RIGHT?!?!?!?



Whyyy, don't you love me anymoreeeeeeeeeee? :(



SAY IT AIN'T SO~!
















Ok ok I sound drunk.

It is 2am though.






BYE LOVERS! I'LL BE BACK WITH PICTURES & HAPPY STUFF (uh, hopefully)

Tomorrow - Avril Lavigne

I've been listening to this song for years whenever I'm down.



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And I wanna believe you,

When you tell me that it'll be okay.

Yeah, I try to believe you

But I don't..




When you say that it's gonna be

It always turns out to be a different way.

I try to believe you

But not today, today, today, today, today..




I

I don't know how I'll feel

Tomorrow..

Tomorrow.


And I don't know what to say,

Tomorrow

Tomorrow, is a different day.


It's always been up to you..

It's turning around, it's up to me

I'm gonna do what I have to do

Just don't.




Give me a little time,

Leave me alone a little while..

And maybe its not too late

Not today, today, today, today, today..

7 things i'm missing right now

It may be the holidays,

I may have alot of time to do the things I wanna do,



however there's just some things that don't occur so often no matter how much time I have or how much I want it to happen..







It's been rainy these few days~

Urging me to stay at home & reflect a little.






The kind of feeling you get when you get

when you wake in the morning, slowly walk towards the window while letting the cold breeze gently sweep across your face and watching droplets of water gradually fall from the sky.





And I suddenly realize I'm missing alot of things in my life so badly.



So here are the top 7 things I'm missing right now






#1 thing I'm missing right now - I miss my Dad.



I only get to see him a few times in a whole year. Been like that since like, parents separated.





That's me and Daddy a few months back while having dinner at Sentosa with my boyfriend & friends.

He gave me & James vouchers to stayover at Sentosa's resort.

& yeah I know I look retarded in the picture, I was sweaty & tired and all so shhh. I still had straight hair back then =o



Yeah but how retarded I look is not the point. The point is I MISS MY OLD MAN!



I miss going to America with him.


I miss the time we went to Las Vegas, watched all the freaking awesome shows & stuffed ourselves silly with hotel buffets.







Then we'd marvel at the city's amazing lights & hotels, & excitedly exploring everything it had to offer.










The Bellagio's fountain display at night was breathtaking..

I still remember very clearly when me & my Dad were watching the waterworks, I suddenly said, "How I wish I had him here with me..."


And by "him", I obviously didn't mean James, I meant my online "boyfriend" (from Neopets, to be specific).


What?! I was only like 11 years old so having a Neopets crush is still acceptable la.



By the way, when I got back from my holiday I found out that Adam (I still remember his name can!), my Neopets love, actually hacked my Neopets account & wiped the entire thing clean. I had millions lor! Then I never heard from him again. So much for wanting him to be there with me in Vegas







And I also miss the times I went to Disneyland, Sea World, Universal Studios, & all the other amusement parks, hotels with my dearest Daddy.







Say hello to my favourite place in the world!!!! DISNEYLAND.

They have awesome street parades plus amazing fireworks display every single day. Which other damn place in the world can beat that?





I miss dragging my daddy onto every single awesome disney ride. I miss eating their turkey legs and churros. I miss being the happiest kid in the world.






Awww look at that. The 2 peeps on the extreme right are me & Dad, @ a freaking fun water raft ride in Disney's Adventure Park (or something, can't remember)


Right after we got off the ride, I dragged him all the way to the entrance to sit on it and get drenched all over again. HAHAHA.


It's fun to get drenched in America where it's freaking cold.








Aww, I wanna keep blogging about Sea World, Universal Studios & everything else because it brings back fond memories that are the closest to my heart and it makes me super happy & excited to blog about them.


Yet at the same time, it makes me kind of sad because I don't know when I'll get to have the experience with my Dad again and all.. I wonder if he still thinks of me everyday.


But you get the picture of how much I love everything I've mentioned above, don't you? =)









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#2 thing I'm missing - Spending quality time with the rest of my family. (mum, bro, cousins, etc)







Wooooo~ That's my Mum.


Don't you wish your mama was hot like mine?



Even though we stay in the same house together with my brother, we hardly get to spend quality family time together. And I do mean hardly.. Once in awhile it makes me sad, but I get over it fast. Not all families are perfect :]





I love family gatherings, which is why for the first time, I'm so looking forward to Chinese New Year! Not only do we have lots of goodies, angbaos & family gatherings, I think we're also going for a trip to Genting together. Weeeee~









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#3rd thing I'm missing right now - The Mighty 6 Bitches.





(missing dear rach in the pic)


Oi!!!! I KNOW YOU GIRLS WILL READ THIS!

What I have to say to you 5 bitches is: Eat shit & die la. =(



Ever since the holiday started, we've been spending NIL time together. 3 of them disgustingly busy with their boyfriends and other stuff but just not girlfriends. Grrr.


I have a boyfriend but I still make the effort to try to meet you girls up okay?

Eunice!! STOP cooping yourself at home playing online games, or else I'll knock on your front door and slap you with my ass.


& YOU, stupid bitch with her ass all the way in America. Ya ya ya, stop laughing Rachael Siew Ji Tek. So now it's all Jake, Gill and godknowswho - no more Singaporean friends in your heart right? I swear, if you don't come back to SG next year, I'll fly over to America to kill you so we can have that songka party you always wanted.





Ok. I'm done with the scolding.
Even though I've cursed every single one of you, I still love you guys k =D









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#4th thing I'm missing right now - Good Food.







=(


I'm starving right now. I'm a glutton. I can never get enough of good food.

I want to jump into the fucking monitor screen and onto those seats! The good food was meant for me. I JUST KNOW IT.









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#5th thing I'm missing right now - James.







Hello there lover ;)



He makes my heart skip a beat everytime I see him. Because no one else can make me feel the way he does.


Because there's no other man in this world I'd rather be in love with than my baby!


& this sweetie pie is on the way to my place now. YAY. I can finally see him, he works everyday except Saturdays (which he spends with me, so sweet.)


The poor boy must be awfully tired from all the work, furthermore he has to travel all the way from Boon Lay to Simei after his work, and early in the morning tomorrow he has to do it vice versa again.


I really appreciate it though. I GET TO HUG MY LOVE TO SLEEP TONIGHT! ("v")










Hehehe I found this picture while browsing through my HP's memory card. I drew that on his back last time =P




And he drew this on mine:







HAHAHAHA.

Oh my love, the silly stuff we always get up to..









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#6th thing I'm missing right now - Shopping (and money)






Because it makes me just as happy as this adorable kiddo.


The best things in life are free - family, friends, sex, love, etc..


And even though all of those make me very happy, (not so sure about the sex part)


Materialistic pleasures gets me pretty damn excited as well!


I want to buy fabulous dresses, luxurious branded handbags, some killer heels & whatnots..





Forever 21. My addiction. My love =')


The best fashion line where you can find so many different styles of fashionable clothing - chic, demure, sweet, cute, sexy, elegant, glamorous, funky, outrageous..


All at really affordable prices. Whenever I go shopping, if I don't shop at Forever 21 I'd feel incomplete. =o










#7th thing I'm missing right now - ...School?








I don't miss the waking-up-during-godforsaken-hours-of-6am-to-take-a-1-hour-bus-ride-to-school-and-listen-to-fucking-boring-lessons, but..

I miss my kuku classmates! Yes, that's me in the green shirt with my pink specs. Finally you get to see a photo of me without the make up, false lashes, dresses & bling bling huh?


And yes, my skirt IS long, I look like a bookworm.. I don't really care if I look "uncool" in school or whatever. I dress in the latest trends and I've got the newest Gucci bag, but that doesn't mean I have to display all that in school.


I dress appropriately for school because it's an educational school and not a fashion school. Stupid ah-lians with their pathetically-authored-until-mini-skirts, fancy (ugly, actually) hair accessorries and colourful plastic earrings should learn to get that fact right.






I'm not particularly close to my classmates, but well, I guess everyone will miss something that's become a routine in their lives.







I also miss falling asleep during lessons la, LOL. You probably can tell from the picture that my class isn't the most hardworking bunch =P


But that doesn't mean we're not clever. Woohoo.







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And that's the end of my long post and list! =D


Although there are many other things I wanna do like go wild wild wet (I know it's weird but whatever LOL), have BBQ, etc.. but I figured these were the first few things that came to my mind while I was deep in thought.






Oh, what I'd give for all these things to happen once again.






...What do you feel is missing from your life?