"im like the sweetest girlfriend ever. HAHAHAHA. i made him a card-like thingy, which i drew on alot of stuff like "9 reasons why i love you" (chose that title because its our 9th month)
so here are the 9 reasons:
reason #9 ~ whenever you tell me that you miss me,
and when you tell me that you love me, my heart just melts to know that I'm missed and loved by you...
And I feel like the luckiest girl on earth.
reason #8 ~ I absolutely love it when you hug me and when you hold my hand, because I'd feel so secure and
I wish that you've never let go.
reason #7 ~ You make me feel like no one else ever could, an indescribable feeling..
I love how I can be myself around you, I'm not afraid to laugh, I'm not afraid to cry.
I want you to know that you are my favourite person in the world.
reason #6 ~ Because you've stolen my heart since the first day I met you..
...So can I have it back?
reason # 5 ~ For these 9 months, we've had so many wonderful moments and good times together -
sweet, sweet memories that would have been impossible without you.
I owe it all to you for painting colours into my life, so thank you baby.. <3
reason # 4 ~ Everytime when I'm lying so close to you in your arms, I forget about everything else in the world..
Because right here, in your arms, is where I want to stay.. forever
reason # 3 ~ When I'm having a bad day, you just make me feel so much better.
Hearing your voice brings me so much comfort, Looking at your handsome face brings a smile to mine,
& when you hold me.. I know that everything's gonna be okay.
reason # 2 ~You've taught me the true meaning of love. Now I realise that love is not just all about being happy with hugs and kisses, but that love is also about pain, loss and sacrifices..
But every mistake is a lesson in disguise, what's important is that you learn your lesson and don't make the same mistake again. Wounds will heal with time :)
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NUMBER ONE REASON:
And sometimes,
I really don't know the reason why..
I just love you,
love you so much.
Happy 9th month anniversary darling.
wooohoo and that was the end of it ! =D
i know, its like sooooo mushy but i love it. LOL. i spent like so long coming up with that okay! and i meant every single word of it :) "
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...Once in awhile,
I'd look through my archives because whether the memories are bitter or sweet, they still mean alot to me. And looking through my older posts, I realized I was alot more expressive and willing to open up in the past..
Perhaps the events have changed me into a different person.
Someone asked me why I removed the previous "love" post.
I believe you can figure that out on your own.
Some posts brings a smile to my face, some just makes a tear roll down my cheek.
Anyway, here are some old (sad) entires which mean alot to me -
thought you guys might like to read them, considering updates haven't been very frequent in my blog recently.
From the older posts to the newer ones
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Read this from another one of my older posts:
How do people move on from past relationships? How do people forget somebody who was once so very close to them? How does some people feelings fade so easily?
Everything is just so very superficial in this worlddddd. Honestly.
People say that love doesn't fade, love is eternal, blahblah,
but that's just bullshit.
Just like how people who are "in love" at the moment will tell you how great love is,
but when they break up they will tell you how shitty love actually is.
How is it that a couple can be so in love at the age of 20,
then at 25 they got married,
but at the age of 35 they just "fell out of love" with each other and divorced, then re-married another person again?
Does that mean that they never really loved each other?
Or did their love just, "fade away"?
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And If love could just.. fade away,
then I guess that is not really true love at all?
But how do you justify that, when they were very much in love in the beginning? Surely years of affection, understand and time spent together couldn't just be an infatuation?
If someone loved you yesterday but somehow doesn't really love you anymore today,
Does that mean that their love has always been superficial...?
How is it that men can cheat on their wives,
and after the whole incident, some can still claim that "I still love her, it's just that......"
It's just that what? You got bored of screwing the same hole for too long? You need a breath of fresh air?
How dare they still claim to love their wives / girlfriends?
Don't you agree that if they honestly loved their partner, they wouldn't even have done such a thing? Even if they have been screwing the same woman for 20 years, that is hardly an excuse, let alone being a reason.
Some men say that being with a woman for too long becomes really boring,
but on the contrary,
doesn't love grow and blossom with time?
So why don't you tell me,
what does "love" really mean?
Nothing nothing nothing makes any fucking sense!! "
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"And the good times that we had, makes today seem rather sad.."
So much has changed.
I wish it was yesterday once more.
