Pretty bridal bear!

Haven't been much in a blogging mood recently..


Time passes too fast!
I've been going out a lot recently but I can't believe it's 18 November already.

The last time I remembered, O levels just ended and it was gonna be Halloween....


Now November is ending?!

And then December will be here?! And then 2009?!!?? Then before I know it I will be 20 then 30 and I will have kids then die. Sigh.



...Ok I know I am exaggerating a little, but that's how it actually feels, doesn't it? Time really does fly.



Life feels a little strange right now... maybe it's because it's so damn different from what I've been used to.

I am reminded of the times I used to spend hanging out with girlfriends from school, in school and out of school of course. I am reminded of the times I used to spend with James.


I used to spend soooooooo much time with the girls and James..



Now that I'm spending like zero time with them, just makes me feel a little empty inside.


Totally not used to it. It is hard to give up the people who once meant your world. And then one day you just realize maybe you're better off without each other... as much as you want to stay together.


I wish somebody would understand, but I doubt anybody will. If there's anything I'm grateful for this year, it is learning not to ask too many "why"s


Sometimes there's no need for Whys.... Things just happen, whether I like it or not.

No doubt I have become a colder person now. I am more reserved, I am cautious..


But at least I know how to walk away from things now. Even if it means ripping my own heart apart in the process. Something dies when you grow older. I am stronger.

But being stronger is not exactly a beautiful thing.



Being stronger than others just means you've been through more bullshit than them. The people who don't have to be strong are the most blessed, because they always have people to fall back on.

Sometimes I wish I don't have to be strong.


But it's just the way my life is...


Ok I don't know what I am talking about anymore. I feel so sickly ughhhh. I've been sick for a long time already!!!!








Yipeeee check out my new SUPER PRETTY BRIDAL BEARIE!!


I saw it the other day and I kept commenting on how pretty and cuddly it is but I didn't buy it cos I didn't have enough money that day, and then Victor brought me back to the shop yesterday and he bought it for me!!

Super sweet of him rightttt. I love it soooo much :) :)




Why are nice guys always not my cup of tea? Most of the guys I like are unromantic and insensitive.... whereas the guys I don't like are normally nice!

My goddddd I should stop falling in love with assholes. Why am I attracted to bad boys?



I am SO SELF-DESTRUCTIVE.



I haven't gone gaga over soft toys for a long time already....



I saw this FUCKING HUGE BEAR at the same shop yesterday and I fell in love with it immediately as well!!


But it's $300+ LOL. It is even bigger sized than me, now you know how big it is...




Anyway I am just rambling on and on. I'm bored now, I think I'm going to Far East Plaza to head down for Milly's to get my nails done...

Cos mum just called and says she's there -___-


So annoying, I wanted to go down earlier just now lor but I thought I would wait for her and who knew she would call me to tell me she's already there!!!



I am going to dye my hair brown.. Yipppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.



Byebye now!