our story - never has an ending

"Ehh.... he looks quite small sized leh. And not really as cute as his display picture lor!! And what is he doing carrying that fierce helmet that looks way too big for his tiny-looking head?"



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*pats James on the shoulder*

..."Hi! I'm Jessica."









It sounds like three very simple words that I should have gottenn used to saying all my life already, but I was literally stuttering. He turns his head to look at me.



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...He gives me this blur, confused look, and I was nevervously wondering if he was asking himself why this "Jessica" turned out to be such a freak!!!


Then, to my relief, he stretches out his hand to shake mine gently but firmly, and said, "Hi, nice to meet you, I'm James."




~~~HEHEHEHE soooooo funny plzzz. It sounds so formal and awkward, right?





Well, I really shan't waste too much time elaborating on our conversation and what happened exactly and all that jazz, so here's a summarized version:





He asked me if I've had lunch. I say yes, then he suggests to go for a movie instead. So we did! Took the escalator up and he bought the tickets.



Guess what movie we watched? ... .... ....











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The Break Up.





LOL I KNOWWWWWWWWWW, the irony is killing me!!! What a start. It's really funny, how things turned out to be.



Quite a weird movie to watch with somebody you've met for less than an hour.







Nevertheless, the tension eased and I realized this guy appreciates good humour. I started to have "hao gan" towards him, if you know what I mean! Man, I am really asking for it lor. I'm always falling in love so easily and so quickly! Somebody save me.






..To be very very very frank with you, I don't quite remember what happened after buying the tickets, la. =P

It is like 1 year and 9 months ago lor!





The only thing I remember is the main detail - we went to watch The Break Up and after that, we had dinner - at KFC!!!!





Stupid stupid stupid Jessica. Don't you ever know that you should NEVER choose KFC or McDonalds for first dates?!?? Sheesh!


Imagine what a pig you'd look like. And it is certainly not a pretty sight to let your date watch you opening your big mouth to devour that messy burger lor and stuff multiply fries into your greedy mouth at the same time. Nobody eats one fry at a time (If you do, you're retarded)



In the end, I settled for Cheese Fries (I was FREAKING HUNGRY but I had no choice! It was the least messy) and he chose to eat a 2 pc chicken meal (its okay for him to be a lil messy la, he's a guy ma.)







The whole time during the meal, we were chatting heartily and laughing away. I felt so comfortable with this guy that I'm only meeting for the first time in my life.







I was telling him all about how I am in the "Emo" mode ever since I broke up with Cliff, and he was telling me about his motorbike and hobbies yada yada...








::: I could now tell, as I was furiously poking my cheese fries with my plastic fork,



that he was seriously checking me out. OMG OMG OMG HE'S CHECKING ME OUT, observing every little detail, DON'T FREAK, JESSICA!!!! ::::









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He asked me if I did any sport, to which I replied, "I can't even run properly. My friends say that when I run, I look like a poor duck"


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I remember we were shamelessly flirting away in front of everybody! LOL. Cannot stand him, I KNEW IT! HE IS a lady killer.











It only took him a movie and a dinner to make my cheeks get hot when I think about him, and get butterflies in my stomach whenever his eyes caught mine.




I asked him, "Hey you think I should cut my hair or not? I think my hair very ugly leh."


And that IDIOT replied me, "Don't cut!!! Your hair is very nice already, really."






.....WHAT A LIAR!!!! My hair was super ugly at that time lor. It was freakishly thin, like those fugly ah lian thin and straight hairstyles that make them look like retarded recovering cancer patients.



But then again, I also can't expect him to go like, "Ya lor, really very ugly. Cut la" =P










SOOOOOOOOOOO....


After the dinner, he sent me home! ....ON HIS BIKE!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA.




It was my first time sitting on a bike, and I was so embarrassed, I tell you! I didn't know how to get onto the bloody motorbike even though he tried to teach me.


So in the end, he had to "CARRY ME" up and place me onto the bike. Kinda like in the movies where the men carry the ladies up the horses. LOL~~~





And off we goooo! We went home. Believe it or not, I was screaming alot throughout the journey. LOL.



I CAN'T EVEN RIDE BICYCLE LOR!!!! Suddenly put me on this somehwhat-dangerous-looking motorbike which is travelling at 120 with a somewhat-stanger guy riding it, of course I'd have a huge rush of adrenaline!





I kept telling him, "I VERY SCARED LEH!!!!!!!" and kept whining and screaming like a little baby. Hahahaha.



And the fucker replied, "Scared then sit closer to me la... If you still scared, hug me tight tight okie?" And then he bat his eyelids in an attempt to be cute / flirty.



Lucky he has beautiful eyes with amazingly long eyelashes, so he was able to pull that off. =X




.....JI DAN!!!! James Ooi, if you are reading this now don't think that I dunno you were trying to take advantage of XIAO MEI MEI lor! LOL~





I fell for it. I hugged him really tight, and after awhile I felt a little better and started to smile. I was damn happy! You know what was on my mind? I kept smiling to myself like an idiot and smiling to those lao pek peks on their lao kok kok motorbikes on the road, thinking,



"HEY EVERYBODY LOOK AT ME!!! I'm on my way home on a shuai ge's motorbike!! HEHEHEHE."






Yeah, I know. A lil pathetic, a lil naive, but very funny =P


Hey, I was only secondary 2 at that time lor!!! How many fourteen year olds can say that they went on a date with a hot 19 year old guy and rode home on his bike?




It was a big deal to me at that time.....


and still is a big deal, to me, now.






Whenever he went a little faster on the bike, I'd suddenly clutch him a little harder and knowing that I was frightened, he'd stroke my hand and hold it securely. As though to say, "Hey, don't worry, everything's okay, I'm here for you."




At that point when I felt that warm, fuzzy feeling with my hand in his, I knew, there and then, that this is the hand I want to hold forever.

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We reached my place and I was sad to leave. I couldn't believe it had only been less than 7 hours since I've met this guy, because as short as it may seem, I felt a strong connection to him as though we've spent much more time together than that.



I tried to sneak a photo of him, but he caught me in the act and covered his face with his hands! Hmpf.



He asked for a hug, and I tried to act shy and said, "Nope! Maybe the next time I see you, hehehe. Byeeeeee!" and then I RAN ALL THE WAY to the lift and my house. LOL. Even though I can't run and I look stupid doing it, I had to, cuz I was seriously late (curfew)



Without even waiting for an answer or turning back to look at him, I left... Just like that!






I felt a little bad and stupid for acting cute like that, it wasn't very polite to "say goodbye" that way during your "first date"


I received an SMS from him, and I thought he would be annoyed or something, but instead, he said......





"Actually.... You don't look like a duck when you run la =)...





"Phew..." I thought. At least he's not angry. Hmmm, wait, there's more to the SMS?




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....But you run like a chicken."



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WTF WTF LOL OMG.




He drives me absolutely crazy. I couldn't take it anymore, I was smiling to myself like crazy, so on impulse, I took the lift downstairs and ran all the way to his bike, where he was standing beside it wearing his helmet.


I giggled to myself at the sight of him looking so ridiculous wearing that majorly oversized helmet which looks so fierce, yet he's looking at me innocently.



I walked over, and hugged him tight. It's funny to hug someone who's wearing a huge helmet.


Beaming at him and receiving a grin back, this time, I made sure to receive a responsive "Bye!" from him first, before running to the lift like a chicken and going up to my house again.







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And that,
was our first date.




...Less than a week later, we met up again. This time, the location was his house.


"Wa, Jessica!!! 2nd time meeting him only and you go his house already?"




But, my dearies, you must understand! We were on the phone and he asked, "Hey, you wanna come over to my place this Saturday?"


And I was really excited but hesitated a little and said, "hmmmmm..."



To my surprise/horror (=P), he said "I take that as a yes, then." He then shouts to his mother, "Mum!!! I'm bringing my girlfriend home on Saturday to meet you."




LOL~~~~ You see now... How could I have said no? Saturday came, and he asked me 5 times before I said yes. Told you he's persistent!!


Yeah, James certainly has his charming ways with ladies.




Btw, remember the part where I said he doesn't look as charming as his photos? Well, the longer I look at him, the more charming, cute and handsome I find him so that's totally not true. =)

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I wish I could tell all of you more about what happened next.



It is one amazing story that I am very happy to tell... (even though typing everything is honestly tiring and tedious!)





Our Love is More Than Words.




As time passed, we grew to understand each other, and loved each other. We also had break ups and very ugly quarrels inbetween, yet we've had such amazing memories together that none of you would be able to imagine.


Yes, some say my story sounds like a fairytale - it is very magical to me. He's my first true love!













This is why I say I believe in love at first sight - he made my heart skip a beat the very first time I saw him, and still does now.






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Never would I have thought I'd find my first true love from a Random Gunbound Room.


That guy who called me a noob and challenged me on a 1on1 duel yet lost to me, then resorted to asking for my MSN instead.

That guy who kept trying to ask me out all the time, but I kept turning him down instead...








Our story started on 26-08-2006, and I hope I'd never have to write an ending to this.






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This is us, now..
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If I could, I'd choose to spend everyday lying in your arms like this










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Sunsets never looked this beautiful before










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And this is only the beginning of our story, James.





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our story - what happens next

From then on, our Gunbound sessions turned into MSN sessions and.....




I didn't quite know what I was doing. back then...... Afterall, I thought I was only adding a stranger to MSN from an online game. Everybody does that. No big deal.






Nothing would happen, right?


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So we started chatting, and I found out that his English name is actually James. And then I saw his MSN display picture and I was TOTALLY like,




"OMG!!!!!!!! SO CUTEEEEEEEEE!!!"







Does anybody here believe in love at first sight? Cuz I definitely do.

I wasn't completely madly in love with HIM then, cuz for all I know he could be some balding 50 year old man who farts 20 times per hour behind this cute MSN display picture, right?



So I kept my distance but I chatted with him casually - just like anyone would do with their MSN contacts. My mind was very very very simple - I was but 13.




Although I didn't know this guy, I had a crush on his.....




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FACE!!! HAHAHAHAHA.


His picture was sooooo cute. It was a picture of him with his friend's little kid, and the kiddo's name happened to be JAMES as well! There was a caption on his photo that said, "James and James Jr."


When I saw that ADORABLE picture with the kid, I went like, "AWWWWW! James is sooooo cute."



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"...Which one?? =) "




LOL! Helllloooo. He flirts in a way that you wanna smack his head real hard for being a twat but at the same time he makes you giggle and blush, sorta.



I really can't help but grin from ear to ear as I'm typing this.


There was just something about this guy I couldn't keep off my mind. The way he flirts with you and you can tell he's interested in you, and just when you're starting to enjoy the attention, he doesn't try so hard anymore and you go like, "is this guy even serious at all?!"




Trust me when I say that I KNOW A LADYKILLER WHEN I SEE ONE!






This random MSN guy, James, was DEFINITELY it. The funny thing is, after chatting a little more, he asked me to send him my pictures so I did.




Oh oh...
Nu-uh.


Bad mistake.


I looked absolutely horrible back then! James was nice enough and told me I looked SEXY and sweet.








...HAHAHAHA! Pedophile Alert!!!


You don't go around telling 13 year olds they're sexy, honey!




Then again, flattery ALWAYS wins a woman over... There was something that felt sincere about his compliments, so I took it all in.




The time came:


He asked,



"Hey... so you free tomorrow? Wanna go out and catch a movie? We can have dinner after that... =)"




Ok, I can never ever forget how he ALWAYS used the =) smiley. LOL.

I tell you, I was so amused by this guy I remember jumping for joy when I received this MSN message. But at the same time, I was really freaked out!




I looked really horrible at that time, this guy was WAY out of my league, I was really young and I didn't know him at all so honestly, if he wanted to meet me he must be either really genuine, or really perverted.






As much as I would love to scream, "YES YES YES!!!!"




I made up 101 excuses why I could not meet him. I would say that my parents won't let me out of the house, I've got work to do, etc.


And he never stopped trying!!



...Well, ok, he stopped after 2 months of constant harrassing me over MSN. Lol.





Really couldn't stand this guy! He would go like, "Hey... so how? You promised you'd go out with me this week. Let's go have dinner and movie, ok? =)"


And I'd try to wriggle my way out and say something like, "Hmm.. I'm not sure can or not. I let you know later if I'm going or not ba."






Then I went offline. When I came back 5 hours later, the first message I received on MSN was :


"You bluff me.... ='(

You said you will let me know, but you didn't get back to me and I was waiting for you the whole day dear..."





Wa piang oi. My status turned from Noob, to Xiao Mei Mei, to Dear. LOL~





The moment he started to go all flirty and it was wayyy too overboard so I decided to forget the idea of him. I ignored his messages and never bothered to contact him anymore. I still had his handphone number in my contact list though!





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And then I kinda forgot about this funny flirty cutey MSN / Gunbound guy James, for about 1 year.



He ceased to exist in my thoughts, and James never went through my mind again except occasionally,





I'd tease my ex-boyfriend and say,


"Ok fine! You want to be like that then like that lor....I go find James already"






...LOL!!!! It's true.


Btw, did I mention I was already attached at that point of time?



..Oops. Sorry la, no time to talk about 2 different love stories. Lol. But just so you don't get confused, let's sidetrack abit and put James aside for a moment to focus on my then-boyfriend.






So let's just call this ex-boyfriend, erm... Cliff.




Cliff and I were on pretty good terms, and as much as I was smitten by James' cute MSN pictures (plz remember I was only 13 years old!)



I still liked Cliff very much, and I know it's not appropriate to meet random male strangers you met online when you're attached and all, so I kept a distance from MSN JAmes.


So what's my short summarized story with Cliff?




Ok...




I tell you all a secret,

you guys plz don't laugh too hard... ok?





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I SAID STOP LAUGHING!!!!! LOL~




Yes yes yes, it's true, omg.



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This is social suicide.

I shall now not be known as "Jessica the Blogger", but as "Jessica who picks up guys from Gunbound"







But I swearrrrr, when I logged into Gunbound everytime my only intention was to dual and kill their asses, not to be their girlfriends la!




Ok enough of ridiculous facts about my relationship. I'm telling you so much more than you need to know =P

Be grateful and take it all in. Hahahaha.







So basically, Me & Cliff met through Gunbound, and at one point I really thought James was cute so I put his picture as my MSN display picture so Cliff asked, "Who's that?"

And I said, "Dunno, some guy named James. I think he's cute!"



Cliff agreed that this James guy is really good-looking and cute, and so I sent him more of James photos so he could see better. LOL.







And when we were playing and had a "fight", I would always say, "FINE!! Be like that. Hmpf. I go find James already... byebye."



And Cliff would be like, "T_____________T you go lor, you go find James lor. I go die!" or something.






I remember seeing James picture on Cliff's MSN pic also, LOL!







HAHAHAHAHHA. I dunno about you but I find everything written above so damn amusing. My life is like this really dramatic series that would make the weirdest movie ever recorded in history.



Not in anybody's wildest imagination would they have guessed my past relationships were like this. =P







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Alright, to cut a long story short, the fun was over in a matter of months. Just like every other good thing in life, my relationship with Cliff came to an end.


Cliff decided to break up with me because apparently, I was really posessive and stuff and he needed to concentrate on his O Levels (HAH!)





I REALLY LIKED HIM ALOT LOR!!!

So.....






Here comes the part where everything changes.



As expected, like every other break up I would face in my life, my life turned upside down and I cried many times every single day because I was so emotionally attached and I couldn't let go of Cliff yafayaf odajfoejufoue9r47rajkfa



You know, the usual emo bullshit.





MY LIFE SEEMED TO BE OVER.

What was I going to do without Cliff?....







After alot of determination and trying to cheer up, I decided to..

Do what every other girl out there does lor, have a feel-better-after-break-up-plan.






#1 on every girl's list is - Go out and have fun with your girlfriends.




That's exactly what I was planning to do!!!!



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Flashback:




It was a bright and sunny weekend - perfect for going out.I was looking forward to meeting my girl Eunice, we had plans to go to town together.

I got dressed, but halfway through she called me and told me she couldn't make it. Bummed out, I wondered if I should just stay at home or find someone to go out with me?





After calling my close friends and realizing all of them were busy, I scrolled through my phone contact list out of desperation.




Scrolling....
Scrolling...
Scrolling...





Called Aaron, wasn't free. Called Liza, wasn't free also. Seems like nobody is free!!!!







And as I was scrolling even further, a name caught my eye:




James.



James James James James... Where have I heard this name before? Why does he seem so familiar yet unknown at the same time?






I sat down and thought hard... And suddenly, I burst out into laughter.






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James James James James... Where have I heard this name before? Why does he seem so familiar yet unknown at the same time?



I sat down and thought hard... And suddenly, I burst out into laughter.



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Hey, isn't this that funny and cute Gunbound guy I met a long time ago? Throughout the whole 1 year plus I had his number in my phonebook, I never realized it existed!!



I wonder how he is now.



....Sheesh, he's probably forgotten who the hell I am already. No wonder he hasn't contacted me for so long.


I mean, not that I am sad or what la, it's expected anyway. Who keeps in contacts with strangers in MSN anyway?




I highly suspect I belong to the "Don't-Know-Who-They-Are-Leh" List in his MSN.






Nevertheless, I cannot help but remember his miserable but persistent attempts at asking me out in the past!! Muahahahaha.

There is just something thrilling about rejecting a cute guy over and over and watching him come back for more.



But of course, guys and their huge egos - he felt "sian" after awhile.








...........Surely, he wouldn't remember me at all?


Heck, think so much for what! Just call la!!!



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Cheesepie!!!

He didn't pick up the phone.





.....Forget it. What was I expecting anyway?


I am doomed to remain depressed over this break up with Cliff forever, cuz I can never seem to experience new things and have fun or go out. Life sucks.



How? What to do now? Sure very boring one lor!






I WANT TO GO OUT!! GRRRR SOMEBODY JUST GO OUT WITH ME-





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New Message from James:
"Hello, you called me? Who are you?"


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DRATS!!!!!!! Told you he doesn't remember me anymore lor. I am just a xiao mei mei afterall.





Nevertheless, I was damnnnnnn bored so I replied,



"Hey yeah I called to ask if you wanna go out... I'm Jess."




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................WA PIANG!!!

This guy very cute, hor? Last time he was like PLZ GO OUT WITH ME and now he's like all WHO ARE YOU?



Really really buay tahan liao! Ignore him better la.





So I couldn't be bothered to reply my message and proceeded to carry on with my emo-ing... Tick tock tick tock, 20 minutes have passed so fast.





"This is the end", I thought. Doomed.




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"Are you the Jess who stays at Bukit Timah?

I thought last time you don't want to go out with me, so why now suddenly ask me out??"



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HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

He still remembers! Woooooppsss.



So we exchanged a few more SMS-es to confirm our meeting location, time and all and then I went to prepare myself. Better look my best. WHAT TO WEAR???






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More than 1 hour has passed. I am now walking out of Somerset MRT, and I pass by a mirror. I check out my reflection...




Green contacts with a little mascara and lipgloss, a crown necklace and hoop earrings, a black spaghetti inside a red jacket and black baggy 3 quarter pants - oh yes, did I mention I was also wearing those punk-ish STUDDED BELT?



I thought to myself, "Yep. I look cool. It's all good" (Jess now says: WTF!!! COOL??? UTTERLY HORRIFYING WHAT WAS I THINKING?!?!)







This is it!! I'm going to meet this mysterious WeiXi0ng character from Gunbound. I have no idea what he sounds or looks like, for all I know, he could be that 50 year old smell old man I feared he would turn out to be.



As I arrived at Cineleisure, I look around anxiously...


Could I recognize him, just by trying to remember that cute MSN display picture I fell in love with a long time ago?






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Sent him an SMS:

"What are you wearing?.. I've reached already."



Then came his reply:

"A green polo tee. I'm near the escalator"







OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I see him.




He's staring right at me, but he doesn't know who I am - yet. He looks away.


And I try to pluck up as much courage as I can!! It is certainly not easyyyyyy. As I take footstep after footstep and walked nearer to him, I take a deep breath...




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...***to be continued***

our story

It was a bright and sunny weekend - perfect for going out.


I was looking forward to meeting my girl Eunice, we had plans to go to town together. I got dressed, but halfway through she called me and told me she couldn't make it.



Bummed out, I wondered if I should just stay at home or find someone to go out with me?

After calling my close friends and realizing all of them were busy, I scrolled through my phone contact list out of desperation.




Scrolling....
Scrolling...
Scrolling...






Called Aaron, wasn't free. Called Liza, wasn't free also. Seems like nobody is free!!!!




And as I was scrolling even further, a name caught my eye:





James.







James James James James...

Where have I heard this name before? Why does he seem so familiar yet unknown at the same time?




I sat down and thought hard... And suddenly, I burst out into laughter.

This was the flashback that came to my mind:



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It all started more than 3 years ago... When I was only 13 years old.


I still remember, that fateful day.

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My cousin had just passed away. I was in shock and in denial.

I was so young and I didn't know who else to turn to. My whole family was grieving...





And I didn't have much friends back then. Lonely I was, I turned to the internet for comfort.



I went online and logged into Gunbound and browsed around.



I saw a room with 4 open slots but only one slot was taken by the room master. Seeing that even after a few minutes nobody wanted to play with him, I felt bad for him and went into the room.


I remember the room title very clearly: Random Only






Sooo... the room master liked to play Random Bot games, eh?


I looked at his username: WeiXi0ng.
Then I looked at his country....




Oooooh! A fellow Singaporean boy. Must be nice to chat with.

And so I made the first move to initiate the conversation... told this WeiXi0ng boy that I was sad.






He asked me, "why?"
so I went on pouring all my sorrows to him...





He asked me my age and my school and stuff, then told me to cheer up and that I was just a "xiao mei mei" so dont worry too much.



After awhile, he didn't reply. Instead, you know what he said during the game?



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...............WTF!!!!!




Talk about totally uncalled for!






I was a 13 year old girl feeling very sad so she played gunbound and just needed someone to talk to her lor, even if it was just an online team mate.






The last thing I needed was someone telling me I played badly.

I was really angry, so I left the room.







To my surprise, I received a message: "Hey... You angry ar? Sorry la xiao mei mei, come back lar, kor kor don't bully you anymore, ok?"




I replied this: "Wtf, you think you very pro meh? You think you are a blue wand very big deal meh? Play 1on1 la hor, see who is the noob."








LOL!!! So funny right. I was so trying to be ah-lian last time.







Anyway, he said something like:

"come la, on la xiaomeimei, 1on1."







So we had a 1on1 match to see who was the REAL noob. I wasn't going to forgive this stupid online Gunbound-er so easily, he had just insulted me and called me a noob when all I really needed was a listening ear!




We played and at first I was losing.... but at the end, I made a comeback and I won! As expected, I WON. HAHAHAHAA.

I won I won I won.





That WeiXi0ng apologised to me and said, "ok la, you are the pro ok, xiao mei mei? don't angry. whats your msn, give kor kor."





I couldn't believe this guy lor!!! WTF.



First he calls me a noob and ignores my depressed feelings and loses to me 1on1 and now he asks for a Xiao Mei Mei's MSN.





But since he's apologized and all, I forgave him and added him to MSN.



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From then on, our Gunbound sessions turned into MSN sessions and.....




I didn't quite know what I was doing. back then...... Afterall, I thought I was only adding a stranger to MSN from an online game. Everybody does that. No big deal.






Nothing would happen, right?


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***to be continued***

blog layout

Yo yo yo!

Any blogskin-ers here? Or anyone who does flash layouts or web design?




I am intending to change my blog layout so that it's neater and more professional / unique, if anyone is good with HTML or graphic design, please email me at Shiberty@hotmail.com if you're willing to help out, alright?!


If you're professional or really good at it and require a fee, you can show me your portfolio and we'll discuss more from there :)




I bet you guys are pretty sick of this layout.. I know I am! Been using it for way too long.



Can't wait for a new change!! I wanna change my blog layout, change my make up, change my clothes, change my hair and change my boyfriend . LOL




Mucho love people!!

jessica & james

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I could spend my life in this sweet surrender...

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I think my extensions are like rotting! Time to remove them. I don't know if I should cut short hair or straighten my hair or extend again?!


Totally confused. I adoooore my hairstyle in the picture above! In the past I used to love my extensions but nowadays it's just really annoying coz it's all over the place. Too heavy and thick.. Especially in shoots, the hair just sticks to me when I sweat and it's super messy + gross!




Cut my hair?

Extend again?

Straighten my hair????



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I don't knooooow!!!!!

funny pics

It's only 11am now! Gosh. Woke up at like 8+am, and we had McDonalds breakfast just now.

Sleepy piggy James is lying beside me =) Ooooh, and now he turns over and looks at me with those sleepy eyes.



AND HE SNORES!


Sheesh, lets ignore him for awhile. I shall try my best to avoid the fact that my totally cute and hot boyfriend is lying beside me sleeping like an angel just begging for me to go over and cuddle him =P




Thought I'd share some funny pictures I took with you guys!





Remember the other time I made my crazy $800 spectacless?! Well, when I was waiting at the shop I walked around KPO-ing.... Lo and behold!





I SAW THIS!!!!







HAHAHAHA they decorated a seashell with little eyes and tiiiiiiny glasses. Doesn't it look freaking adorable?




And this, too:


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TURTLEEEEEEEEEEE!! Rofl. I've thought turtles to be pretty cute ever since I watched "Finding Nemo" and the turtles go "Like Woah" ("v")





Now, something else to share..



Yesterday when me & Jasmine were at Cineleisure, we saw Winnie and she thought we were sisters! Before that, Jasmine's friend also thought I was her elder sister =P


Seems like many people really assumed we're sisters cuz according to them, we look really alike.


Do we??









Hmmm...


DO WE REALLY???


I've never quited believed it. Until.....





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I saw this picture:






...OH YEA BABY~~~ WE AREEEEE SEXAY!


We REALLY look alike now. I believe those people when they say we look like sisters!! LOL.




What's even cooler is that I don't just have only ONE evil twin,
coz like, beautiful people all look alike....




Check it out baby, Jessica and Joanne:







WOOOOOOT! Hot babes alert!!! :D


Monkeys on the loose. HEHEHE. Afterall, we WERE born in the year of the Monkey. I now permit all of you to grab this sexay monkey picture and post it in SgGirls with the caption "So sexy you can't resist" ~~







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What??? .....Excuse me?


You think our photos are not pretty?





..WTF?!!!!!1111@@@@@



YOU MEAN TO SAY, they're like U.G.L.Y?





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NO WAY!!!!!!!!! You make me really saaaaaaad by saying that, y'know?





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Awww no, NOW look what you've done. How could you?!!

You've made Jessie cry... ='((((((((









She is definitely not happy with your HURTFUL and insulting comments on her beautiful photos.


Cuz, like,



whoever thinks that Jessica's pictures in this post aren't masturbation-material are obviously either stupid or really stupid.




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Please vote Jessica for future Miss Universe! If I were to become Miss Universe, (WHICH I WILL BE EVENTUALLY - wait till the judges see the sexy picture below)


I would grant all of you PERFECT eyesight...




So that you can admire and appreciate my beauty for ALL that it is.






If you don't think I'm beautiful, you obviously need to vote me for Miss Universe so you can get your eyes checked already.




Chao! Muah!!~~~ Goodbye adoring fans!!!!


...World peace. Jessica shall send in her Ms Universe application form with the above photos.

update

Sooo sorry for the lack of updates. Me and James 1 yr 8 months anniversary is today! Been quite busy (or lazy :P)

We're supposed to go for a couple photoshoot, but his grandma just passed away =((((


So we'll see how things go... I'll update ASAP ok, latest by sunday. See y'all!

Babies got special evil looks

HAHAHAHA I LOVE HIS EVIL LOOK ROFL!!!!


3 year olds kick ass

LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

She is PRECIOUS, and one tough cookie!


I am in love with hilarious and adorable children videos recently! Remember "not funny....BUHLUD"?


forever21 & wetseal spree

Looking for Forever 21 and Wetseal sprees ONLY. Must be opened already and must be closing in less than a week's time :)


Ordering more than $100 USD worth, if possible. Please email shiberty@hotmail.com or leave a tag with the blog links if you're holding F21 / Wetseal sprees or know of any other reliable blogshops that do!



Strictly no advertisements on my tagboard unless the blogshops have F21 / Wetseal sprees, for you will be banned, deleted and spammed back.



Thanksssss dearies! =)






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I can't imagine that I still have the time to do several shoots a week when I'm having my O's this year. LOL.


I sooo need to start studying, man! Where's the motivation... =/ I'm sick sick sick of studies.






Anyhoo, some pictures:




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HAHAHA, don't blame me for this picure, havent done this expression in awhile.


Check out the lashes, baby. Wooooooooooooooooo!! I'm in love with them.














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I wanna stay this way forever.















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This picture was actually taken 1 hour before I decided to break up with James. LOL. Look at the expression! Who would have known?.. I think I make a good face model :D













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Will resume my normal blogging as per normal! Love y'all, and once again, thanks sooooo much for concern, encouragement yadayada it made Jessica feel better, indeed. Mwahhhs ("v")

beautiful skies

This post contains quite a number of pictures, some of which I did not take myself, credit goes to whoever took them, sorry for not knowing/stating the origin of the photography.


Do click on the images if you wish to enlarge the picture to see better, because you can expect beautiful pictures ahead =)





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It's such a beautiful day....


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Wait, WAS it daytime when I took this picture?



Hmmm. Guess what time was it?


5pm? 6pm?





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Nah, more like 3am in the morning when I took this picture :



"But Jessica, how can it possibly be so bright during 3am? You trying to bluff who???"









Nobody lar! Compare the above picture with the one below:





Notice that the lights on @ the apartments are EXACTLY the same?


Mmmmhmm. So how could one picture be so bright and the other one so dark?






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Answer: Lightning la.



You know how the sky always "flashes" whenever lightning strikes? Well apparently, lightning flashes provide enough energy to light up the whole sky till it looks exactly like DAY TIME! Cool eh?


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LOL~~~ (don't "chey" me, ok?"





James and me sat by the window watching the rain fall and the intriguing lightning display :)

It was definitely a night to remember..






I remember watching my first lightning display, and it was absolutely fantastic.









The best part is, it's totally unexpected! You can't really tell when you'll see it. The other evening, I just looked out of my window and it caught me by surprise.

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I get very, very very fascinated by pretty, nature things... (insects don't count, fools)

ESPECIALLY BEAUTIFUL SIGHTS IN THE SKY!!!!




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THE. COOLEST. LIGHTNING. PICTURE. EVER.













The one I saw the other night while I looked out of my apartment in Simei was something like this. It was much longer and bigger, though just as bright and prominent-looking. The lightning just kept striking for 40 mins straight, non-stop!! It was definitely a sight to behold. Not sure whether the other residents around my area were noticing the beautiful display... Think they didn't even realize what was going on in the sky above them!



Actually, I haven't met anybody else who likes lightning / pretty things in the sky like I do.












Oh yea. Looks sexyyyy :P


I think the cool thing about lightning is how extremely bright it is, and the shape! Zig-zag-ish. I also love the way it suddenly strikes down/across the sky in a split second. Wayyyyy cool..












I likeeeeee. Looks like the lightning is coming down to earth from heaven~~ LOL.







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Definitely one of the most beautiful things you could ever witness with your eyes -

A U R O R A . . B O R E A L I S



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If you have no idea what an aurora is,

you should seriously smack your forehead now (Really Hard)

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Never in my life
have I seen such alluring splendour...






The beautiful rays seem to be calling out to me... It's almost seductive ;)






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Even just looking at the aurora from a photo, I feel extreme bliss. For once, I forget about all the betrayal and bloodshed that's going on on Earth,


for once, the earth looks so at peace, so natural and absolutely beautiful.


Now I know why
Santa chooses to stay at the North Pole.







Somebody, PLEASE take me there already! I will travel around the world one day, and I will DEFINITELY make the north pole one of my must-go destinations~~



I remember seeing an aurora in a movie a very very long time back. Ever since I first saw it on screen, I loved it so much but I never knew what that colourful thing in the sky was, that something which is even prettier than a rainbow...



It was a movie about a boy and some dogs in the north pole. Can't really remember :(

If anyone here knows what movie I'm talking about, will you please leave the movie name in my tagboard? Thank you!



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The best thing about being on a plane....




Is not really the fact that you're on your way to another beautiful country - to me, I get a thrill just knowing how high up I am, in the endless blue sky.






I look out and I cannot believe my eyes - are these clouds, at the same level and height as me? Am I really inbetween clouds? Are these really the things that I look up at every single day since I was young?

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There's just something mysterious and wonderful about clouds that I cannot explain. One of my favourite things to do when I was younger was to look up at the beautiful sky, observe all the clouds and guess which cloud looked like which animal.

HEHEHEHE...

Now, I wonder what this could be?

















Of course, clouds are not always only what you see in Singapore. There are many different type of clouds! Look at this one, it looks really cute but kinda freaky as well. LOL.














Takes my breath away. I don't believe in god and the sorts, but I've always wanted to be an angel since I was a little girl, so that I could walk and bounce all day long on marshmallow clouds where I could bend down and pluck a piece of it to eat if I were hungry. Then, I'd lie on the clouds and look down on all the people I love...













I love to see the golden sun rays gently peeking out from the clouds above... Makes "heaven" seem like a nice place afterall, considering what it's all cracked up to be.





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I gaze up into the sky and as another firework launches into the sky and bursts into burning flames of magnificent colours,



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with extreme delight in matching rhythm.





It's man-made, unlike all the other natural beautiful sights I've mentioned above. But it's unmistakably beautiful - one of the most beautiful things mankind has ever created, no doubt.















My most memorable fireworks memory? The one @ California Disneyland, with my father, years ago...


I'll never forget that night, when I got caught by surprise as colours just starting bursting into the air - I had no idea Disneyland had fireworks every night!



Tears of joy filled my eyes as I looked from the fireworks to my father and back to the colourful bright sky again - for I knew, right then,




life's greatest moments are made of moments like this.















My other extremely memorable fireworks experience was with James.





It was 2006's New Year's Eve, and I desperately wanted to go to Marina to countdown... But he refused. He hated the crowd, the traffic and all. We quarrelled and he got really upset with me, but in the end, he told me we'd be going home on his bike but he rode us to Marina Bay instead :)

We sang love songs and whispered sweet nothings to each other while waiting for the fireworks to start. When the "teaser" fireworks came out, James recorded the sound and kept replaying the sound after that so everyone else thought that there was going to be more fireworks but it was actually just coming from James' phone. LOL!

I'll never forget that night, when I looked into his eyes and knew for sure he was the man I'd love to love.

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I was definitely the world's happiest girl as we lay on the rocks in each others arms, locked in a deep passionate kiss as everyone around us shouted "Two...One.....HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!" and fireworks shot up into the sky. It was a silent promise of love.




It was our feelings developing into something wonderful called love. It was showing how James paints beautiful colours into my once-dark sky...

What more could I possibly ask for to start a brand new year beautifully?










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And for those who are wondering, I'm still with James now :)

It's extremely complicated, not going to explain, but I feel very happy tonight and happiness is all that matters to me.

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I am smiling,

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Good night everybody... =)



I hope you guys enjoyed reading this post as much as I enjoyed writing it.

Much love,

xoxo Jessica


Nokia Soul Of The Night - Post #3

* note: this post was written a while back..



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Behold, my final post for Nokia's Soul Of The Night advertorial =P



Andddd, Guess what's the topic & destination for today?




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TADAH!!!!


KBOX ~~~~~



Jessica looooooves KBOX, because Jessica loves to sing (even though Jess doesn't sing that well)




Originally, I'd wanted to post up a video of me singing but then after uploading it to youtube, I realized I sang too horribly and posting up that vid would have been Social Suicide.





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So remember the other post when I went like, " I WANT TO SING KARAOKE !!!!!! " ??




James fulfilled my wish, and brought me to Cineleisure's KBOX! Hehehehe.


It's my favourite KBOX outlet cuz Cineleisure is an awesome, awesome place. It's a favourite haunt for midnight movie and midnight KBOX for many people =D






Usually, whenever I'm at Cineleisure I'd have lunch there, play the arcade games, watch a movie, have dinner and finish the day by belting out my favourite songs at KBOX. It's a fun enough day for me!



No clubbing for JESSICA. Absolutely not. Clubbing is shit. =)






Anywayyyyy.




It's really funny to hear some peoples' awful singing whenever I walk past their rooms, HAHA!












Whenever people go sing KBOX with me, they're always like, "Eh, you everytime speak English one... then KBOX you sing English or Chinese ar???"



Hehehehe. I always sing those english classics and oldies, mainly oldies and songs from beatles, bee gees, carpenters, and even WESTLIFE! LOL.












Camwhoring is a wonderful entertainment-subsitute when other people are busy having their go at the microphone.














Fweeeehh~













Ok. Look abit un-natural. =P














Hehehehe. James being stupid but absolutely adorable :]]]]]]]]]]


When he knew I was taking a photo of him, he said "DON'T DO IT OR ELSE!!!!"

And I was like, "OR else WHAT?....."












"Or else...... I'll eat the microphone so we all can't sing anymore!!!!!"








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I love KBOX coz its a wonderful activity to just chill and have fun - no matter 2 or 8 people, there are toilets nearby, I adore their yummy fingerfood, I can belt out to my favourite songs for hours and hours, I can laugh at other people whenever they go out of tune and it is conveniently located all around Singapore!



And it's cheaper than party world, I think.










So head down to Cineleisure or other KBOX outlets to have a great time!! =DDDD









For more places & the latest cuzz about what Singaporeans are up to at night, visit http://www.nokia.com.sg/soulofthenight