Happy New Year!

I want to die knowing that I have loved and lost.

I want to die knowing that I have laughed and cried.









I want to live my life breaking all the rules set for me.

I want to get through day by day, not having to worry about tomorrow.









I want to look back on all the good memories and be thankful for they make my life as beautiful as it is.

I want to look back on all the bad memories and be thankful for they make me as strong as I am.






2008 has been the most interesting and best year of my life, thus far.

Reading my blog, I suppose you'd know why.






No doubt there were some rough patches, but I wouldn't know how to appreciate life and be happy right now if not for some reminders of how sour it can get sometmes.





Count Your Blessings & Stay True To Yourself - the most important lessons I've learnt this year.


Hell broke loose this year.. but it is wonderful to see that everything is peaceful and quiet and absolutely lovely again at the end of the year. It's no wonder that it is my favourite time of the year.


My positivity is infectious, isn't it? Spread the joy!




I won't be making any lame new year resolutions because I've gotten over that stuff. Most of the time New Year Resolutions it ends up becoming empty promises to yourself, and I know I can achieve anything I want to, and I don't need New Year's Eve to prompt me to do it.








The thought of 2009 excites me.. I know too well that it will be better. Life just keeps getting better for me.


And that's the way it's supposed to be.

*** !!Happy New Year everyone!! ***

xoxo,
Jess

Carrerista Jamboree 2008 Day 2

I went for my 3rd day of work yesterday and almost died :(



It was very very cold, even for me, someone who's not that afraid of coldness but I was shivering! So me and Fidel hid in the car and stayed inside there for the next 3 hours before going home.



We didn't do anything at all, what a waste of time! Well except me playing DS Lite all the way




I was playing The Simpsons game which is DAMN FUNNY and actually quite fun! But I kept getting stuck in stages and I couldn't complete the game.





Heheheh look what I drew












And Fidel was reading some book about dogs...










We had a grand total of 1 picture taken yesterday. There was practically NO ONE there except us. If not for the loud R&B music blasting, it would have been dead quiet.

1 flyer given, 1 picture taken. It's too slack until I'm bored out of my mind already!


It wouldn't be so bad if I wasn't feeling unwell... I was having migraine in the morning.





I was still fairly energetic though! I was like this:
























But by the time noon came I was feeling nauseous and very giddy. Sitting in a ridiculously uncomfortable bucket seat in a race car that was so stuffy and competing with Fidel for oxygen didn't help either!



Ok anyway I told Fam I was really feeling unwell so he came to pick us up early.. Isn't he the sweetest thing ever?



Btw I didn't go to work today cos he told me to rest at home! Awwww.



Anyways... I went home, felt like SHIT.






Called baby and whined and whineeeed to him.. and he offered to come over to my place to pass me some medicine because I refused to go see a doctor!




He came all the way from Bukit Batok to Simei just to take care of me, I feel special!



I was so tired that I decided to take a nap without removing my make up or showering.



Before I zonked out






Under his care last night, I am finally well again this morning!!! THANK YOU MY LOVEEEE.




I hope the fever doesn't come back though. Tomorrow is gonna be a long long day, staying until 1+ for the countdown party...




Ok ok enough whining....


Pictures from day 2!








In Fam's car.. Fam drives us there and fetches us home everyday... ("v")













The never ever ever ever ever ending road we have to drive on to get to Changi Exhibition Centre everyday.














Camwhoring away... (told you we had nothing better to do at "work")














We both had purple eyeshadow! I've never applied purple before but I wanted to match Fidel, since we had matching outfits! I kinda like it :)














My partner in crime














I was surprised to see Jazzmine there!

And anywayyy if you look closely at this picture, you can actually tell that I'm wearing shorts, which proves I am a very innocent young girl who is terrified of exposing her hot pink panties. *meek smile*














Yeah baby I am talllll~!





































I'm using Freshkon lenses instead of Dueba/Geo now.. It has a different feel cos it doesn't have that black ring around the pupil! Needs some getting used to.

But I like it coz it gets rid of that huge-eyed "kawaii" look.














Camwhoring from the toilet to inside the car on display. HAHAHA. She doesn't appreciate my kiss :( You don't know a good thing when it's in front of you, woman!!!













Woot, say hello to the twins.














HAHAHHAAHAHA WTF!!!!!!!!!!!! *pinches her cheeks*

DAMN CUTE LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.














Jojo was working there too!














So were Candy, Cordelia and Michelle!!!!

I was talking to them at their booth and suddenly this photographer came up and asked for a picture of all 4 of us. And I'm like, "wtf I'm not even from their booth!"

Their outfit matches the car and all so perfectly and suddenly a bright pink girl pops out of nowhere LOL.











ZOMG CORDELIA FINALLY.

We've been talking about meeting up and hanging out since like what, HALF A YEAR AGO?!?!

I was telling her if not for this carshow, who knows WHEN we would get to see each other! Before I left I said, "Bye corde! See you 2010!" HAHAHA.














She is a darlinggggggggggggggggggg.














Told you they are cute.

We are all bored out of our minds!!!!












Corde: Pleaseee don't post this on your blog!

Me: *evil laugh*














I like going around kissing cute girls!














WOOOOOOO LUCKY ME!!!

My arms fit 3 sexy babes nicely. HEHEHE.









Ok. I realized that most of the pictures I've posted is of me looking very poised and cool with the SAME expression which is TOTALLY NOT TRUE HAHAHA.

Enough of glam, bring on the ugly!!!!











I'm usually quite spastic. Most of the time... I actually look like this.







HAHAHAHAHA Omg you know I think I look like that hamster rodent thingy from the movie BEDTIME STORIES!!!














Wooo! Cool car!

Can't wait to buy my own car, I tell you it's going to be HOT PINK with BLING!!!!






Alrighty. End of Day 2.

From my camera, at least! Post the photos from photographers another time.


See you guys! Tomorrow is the last day of the exhibition so head on down if you wanna see cool cars, drifting races, racequeens, and fireworks at the countdown party!




xoxo,
Jess

Carrerista Jamboree 2008 Day 1

These pictures were taken yesterday



We did pretty much the same thing today. Posing for pictures from time to time, except today I got to play Fidel's DS Lite while hiding inside the car :)

We had flyers, but we had to stand beside the car and nobody actually came close enough for me to pass them a flyer! Hmph. I gave out a grand total of only 1 flyer the entire day lol.







I've never seen or experienced professional drifting before, so being at this event is really an eye-opener.





Sooo much smoke.











The ultimate racer/drifter - Nobuteru Taniguchi!








Night night.

Work tomorrow again... Wtf. 3 more days to go!!!






xoxo,
Jess

Footprints on my heart

Many people walk in and out of my life..

But only a few leave their footprints behind.



Sometimes I still miss you*. I suppose it's to be expected, afterall we have spent about 4 years together. Goodbye is easy to say, but hard to accomplish.

Still, I am glad to say I am happier nowadays.





I learnt some lessons from the mistakes we made...


Every now and then, a memory flashes in my mind... and I feel nostalgic all at once. I miss the laughter. The naiveness. The craziness. The closeness. I miss.. a lot of things. Perhaps it's been too long since it last happened, that I can no longer remember the details so clearly.

It really has been awhile.



And perhaps it's not the feeling of my heart breaking into a million pieces, the kind of feeling I get when I'm going through a rough patch with James.

But, it's still heartbreaking in its own way. I hope that after all this time that has passed, you* would finally understand now why I did what I did.


I have learnt not to cry because it is over, but smile because it happened.





I will treasure our memories, because that's all I have left of you*




Smile if you know I am talking about you* :)

Somehow deep down inside, I hope you do miss me too.

1st day of work at Changi Exhibition Centre

Wooohoo... I'm in a very good mood as I'm typing this!

Just reached home, I feel full! Full with food and contentment. Hehehe.


Me and Fidel and Fam went to Changi Village to eat our dinner, and it's the THIRD time this WEEK I had FISH HEAD CURRY!!! Omg. Second time in a week I went to Changi Village to have it.


Anyway I feel super lucky cos it's only 9pm now and I had dinner and now resting at home, but some other girls at the carshow have to stay there until like 10pm? We went off at 7! And we only started work at like 3 plus.

Most of the time I was just talking to Fidel, sitting inside the car and watching car races instead of posing with the car! And I don't feel so bad for being lazy, cos every 20 mins or so, Fam will come up to us and say, "Tired or not? Come, let's go for a drink!"

Or "Tired right? Go inside the car and relax la."

Hehehe.




I must thank my lucky star for meeting Fam cos he's really a very nice guy. Hope he likes the X'mas present I gave him!

He picked me and Fidel from our houses today, then drove us to have lunch, then drove us to Changi Exhibition Centre which is goddamn fucking ulu.

I didn't know it was soooo inconvenient to get there!! And it's hugeee, even from the car park to the exhibition centre, you'd have to walk quite a distance.


THANK GOD Fam told me he'd pick us up and drive us home every single day, the cab fare would have been ridiculous.


It's super fun working with my darling Fidel and Fam!




I'm tired even though I didn't do much. Feet hurt though, wearing heels never turn out good for me.


Oh and I saw Corde and some other girlies I haven't seen in a long time there!!! Happy to see corde, she's such a sweeeetie.

I'm gundoo, I didn't charge both my cameras so I couldn't bring any today BUT I will bring one tomorrow! So I can take looots of pictures :D







This was our gold and black bling outfit for today:






Ya I know it's super short! But that's cos I'm tall. I had to keep pulling it down... lucky Fidel is shorter so it's a better length for her! Hmph. One of the disadvantages of being tall~ Mini dresses are ALWAYS extra mini for me.



Tomorrow will be a hot pink bling dress, also super short so I think I'm going to wear short shorts inside! Of course that dress is SUPERRRRR gorgeous too... I totally love it :)



I got totally excited after seeing it when shopping with mummy yesterday!







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Oh ya, you know what's so amusing about this particular car show?



Besides cool cars, there's a purple hippopotamus on display too! HAHAHAHAHA.



I'm sure people who have been to the show or girls who work there as well would know what I mean :)







Yayy, I'm going to shower then use my lappy awhile longer and baby will come over! I MISS HIM LIKE CRAZY, even though it's only been a day, it feels way longer than that.




xoxo,
Jess

Merry Christmas!!!!

Hohoho...


MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone!!!


I'm typing on my new ultra sexy pink sony vaio aka my xmas present aka why I love xmas... wooohooo it's awesome! Firstly the keyboard is super nice to type in and secondly everything loads damn fast. Like every 5 pictures that blogger uploaded in this post took a grand total or 2-3 seconds?


I'm using Windows Vista!! Like finalllyyyyy. Damn futuristic feel compared to Windows XP hahaha.

What are you guys doing for this day of sharing and giving?


I didn't have time to get any xmas shopping done!!! Omg so depressed.


I think I'm gonna give belated xmas presents or something. Most likely tomorrow I will cook a meal for my family and baby!!! Hope I cook well, don't wanna make them lao sai on xmas HAHAHA.


Anyways!!!!! Besides my pink vaio being very chio and sleek and nice to use, it also comes with a BUILT IN CAMERA!!!

I just noticed it this morning lor!



Although it's only like 1.3megapixels or so, it's still fun to camwhore with!!!! Very convenient to webcam tooooo.




Here is my Christmas Gift to all of you - PHOTOS OF MY FACE. You are blessed. Praise the lord!

Oooh did I mention I did eyelash extensions yesterday? No more falsies for me for awhile! They are not the most comfortable but they are certainly very pretty! I feel much better going out without make up as seen above (The only thing I have on my face is eyebrow pencil) cos I don't feel that my eyes are so botak anymore!

I did them for free too, Milly sponsored me! Yayyy do I love getting sponsored or what. More info about Milly's soon :)

An hour plus after the photo above.. after dolling up I had nothing better to do.. so I decided to sit in front of my pink lappy to waste time again! Webcam and camwhore! Lalala~

I swear I'm damn babyfaced in pictures but I look much more serious and mature in real life ok~ My face is alot longer and sharper and I look 1000x less friendly. Lololol

I don't understand why my fingers are so fat when they do so much work! I'm always typing furiously away.

DAMN FAT RIGHT!!! HAHAHAHA. James once said my hand looks like a fat primary school girl's hand (cos I always trim my nails till they're super short and I never paint them)

Hmphh.

So to change his mind I applied pink polish!

I'm superrrr tired right now... had a long and fun day out with baby just now. I dunno why I get tired so easily nowadays when I don't do much!

Anyway baby came back home with me.. he's been staying at my place every single night ever since I came back from Vegas!! So happy.

I introduced him to my lappy's cam....

And....

Hahaha hello new camwhore partner aka lover!

This is us, 1am on Xmas Day, just showered. LOL

Know why I'm clutching his head like that? Take note of his facial expression and observe the next few pictures.

Aww see how much I love this idiot!

Proof that I'm a girl who is easily contented. HAHAHA

We're gonna have FAMILY DAY tomorrow for X'mas, yay!

My X'mas wishes came true.

I got a new pink camera, a new pink laptop, and these are the things I wished for this Christmas:

Baby to spend X'mas with me (he's lying beside me now)

To see snow

To spend this special occasion with my loved ones, family dinner, etc!

AND THEY WERE ALL GRANTED!!! Jessica is a happy happy girl :)

Joyyy to the world! May all families out there have a blessed wonderful x'mas together. I really do think X'mas ought to be spent with family and not just friends.

Oh ya and I am freaking amazed at James' attention span.

HE HAS SUCH A SHORT ATTENTION SPAN!!!!!!

He's like a demented bunny, kinda like Raymans Raving Rabbids, LOL

One minute he's taking pictures with me and making silly faces and being cute/retarded/annoying

And the next minute....

HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

Look at him!!!! Snoring away like a pig as I am typing this! I just took this pic like 20 seconds ago. He is so gonna kick me when he finds out I posted this picture on my blog.

Yes I am wearing Botak Jones' shirt to sleep. Baby used to work there LOLOL I always end up stealing his boxers/shirts and sleeping in them.

He is completely unaware that I am making fun of him on my blog even though he's lying right beside me :)

It is such a wonderful feeling to have the one you love hug you to sleep.

We are sooo lovey dovey sometimes, like always cuddling, smooching and all especially when we're lying in bed but the moment he wakes up, he starts to annoy me and kick me etc. OMG.

Sometimes I think he's the cutest when he's sleeping cos he's not irritating me. HAHAHA.

I have like a love-hate relationship with him.

Whenever I don't love him, I hate him!!! HAH.

Most of the time I love him tho.

Ok I'm going to sleep now, super duper tired! I hope I'll have sweet dreams tonight cos I feel so contented!

Once again, Merry X'mas to all!

xoxo,

Jess