Had a bitch fit.
Threatened you.
Shouted at you.
And finally I said, "Let's just take a break from this relationship."
And all that you replied was, "Ok."
....And that was that. We hung up.
I sent quite nasty SMS-es to spite you. I cried, took a shower to cool myself down. Things have not been great recently.
As I was showering, I kept wondering how long this "Cold War" would last. And what I could do to end it. Seems like my actions always backfire....
I wondered when would be the next time I would be able to talk to you again, even though we just hung up a few minutes ago. I felt a tinge of regret for asking to take a break.
I was convinced you were back to your old self again.
Selfish, nonchalant, inconsiderate, foolish, and all that I don't wish to remember...
But everything changed when I went back into my room after a nice long shower.
.
.
.
.
.
.
Because I opened my room door, and I saw you sitting on my bed, with the most apologetic look on your face.
Immediately I wanted to smile, shout out in excitement and jump onto you.
But I tried to remain cool... and asked you what you were doing here.
You started to explain yourself, tried to tell me how sorry you are and how you didn't mean for things to be this way. You went on & on but after awhile I wasn't really listening anymore.
I just felt an immense sense of relief and happiness overcoming me... and I hugged you.
And you kissed me.
And we smiled at each other as a tear rolled down my cheek.
.
.
.
Take a break?
Who am I kidding..
I'll never get enough of you
I'm glad to know for sure that things really are different this time..
Different in the most amazing way.
xoxo,
Jess
