SOOOOOOO... as you may have guessed by now, I have decided to
CONTINUE SHIBERTY'S SWEETS IN SINGAPORE!!!
YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No confirmation on whether we're really gonna set up a store and all yet, still doing my research on rent, competitors, capital and profit etc (ya never know - For a year I was concinced I was gonna go to Melbourne, then Perth, then now... not at all)
But we're definitely trying to expand Shiberty's Sweets into maximizing its full potential :) Keeping my fingers crossed I will have my own shop within the next 6 months to come.
I can't wait to see where this takes me! Definitely my favourite thing about doing what I do is the reaction I get from people. A few nights ago I went out with my girl Natashah to town, so I brought her a box of our cupcakes to try, and when we were shopping in F21 the friendly co-manager saw our cupcakes and went WOAHHHH!!! THEY'RE GORGEOUSSS and started talking to us very excitedly about our cupcakes for the next 20 minutes, and then we also saw our old course mates walking towards 313 and I showed them the cupcakes and they were like WOAH too!!!
I don't think I've ever seen people so fascinated by anything I've done before, lol!
It was a really tough decision for me to make, because I still ADORE the idea of studying in Perth, but I think both ways will bring me great opportunities and life experiences.
I have so much support from my family, friends, readers and especially Sam and my mum - it's incredible!!!!! It was too hard to say no. We will RESUME taking special orders on29th May.
So stay tuned and we will be bringing more YUMMMEHHH flavours your way, one of my new favourites being Butterscotch.
**Btw, this does not mean I'm forever abandoning uni / college / education.
I would still love to go to uni and to live and study abroad, but I figured I'm only 18 years old - TIME IS ON MY SIDE, so I should live the life I want and really I couldn't ask for more!!!!!
If I still want to go to uni at 19 or 20, it's still a good age! If this doesn't work out, I can drop it and go next year.
America's favourite new age cartoon ;)
What the DEUCE?!
I thought I saw a pussycat!!
...I DID, I DID!!!!!
Chicago bears, go go go! (US football team)
A simple message a sweet girl requested to present her husband with!
Topped off with strawberry pink heart shape marshmallows
Sanrio fantasy land!
Keruppi - did I spell his name right?
iPhone games make such a fun theme for cupcakes!!!
Look at those colors POP!
Mini rainbows!!!
3d fondant instruments for a band-themed order!
Our stuff's a lot more clean cut nowadays :)
Pohacco cuppies. Aww man Sanrio characters are just too cute for words
First time doing flowers in this crazy bright blue and I love it!!!!
For the guy who's good at everything.
He's a lifeguard, he likes playing basketball and also a straight A's student... so what do you get him? A bit of everything to represent his diverse personality of course!!!
MAPLESTORY CUPCAKES!!!! My boyfriend and I LOVE this game. The classic green slime, blue snail and orange mushroom!
Been playing this since I was 12!
Someone asked for random girly cupcakes, and this is what we came up with!
Everyone's favourite cat with no mouth
Remember that sinister bear from Toy Story 3 that smells like strawberries? I present to you... an army of LOTS-O-HUGGIN'S!!!!
I was watching Sex & The City (part 1 movie) for the first time the other day and I loved it!
Really fun show, amazing fashion, funny jokes, awesome vacations and everything but one thing I did NOT like about the movie was how Miranda's husband Steve cheated on her and all her girlfriends were saying "It was a mistake to have left him" and that "You should take him back".
....Ok.....
SAY WHAT?!?!!?!?
On what grounds should Miranda even CONSIDER taking Steve back?? (Sure they have a kid but I'd rather my parents be divorced if they didn't love each other than force themselves to be together just cuz of me)
With the kid out of the picture... I mean it's just awful that her girlfriends who are supposed to care about her well being would even suggest that, especially since she was STILL pissed off at her husband at that moment in time and obviously wasn't ready to take him back anytime soon.
I know this was just in the movies but eh.. I can totally imagine this happening in real life to other people.
In fact, I always get people "Should I take my cheater ex back?" on Formspring.
I can't believe it's even a QUESTION people would ask.
I've been cheated on by my ex before, and had anyone suggested taking him back I would have punched them in the face. Sure, I DID take him back once, twice, thrice... but hey, your friends are still not supposed to give you that sort of shitty advice. They are meant to be the voice telling you NO when your heart gives in and cries YES.
At least it always clear in my head that I SHOULDN'T forgive him, but I just wasn't strong-willed enough to do it in a short amount of time.
Thank goodness I always had the support of most people around me, telling me I could definitely so much better than him and that I should just dump him. I can't imagine how much more messed up I'd be if anyone suggested I actually NEED that sort of asshole in my life.
And since there will always be boys and girls out there getting their heart broken by sluts and assholes, I figured it's never too late to do a cheater-flaming post even if my experience was 2 years ago, I still wanna share my thoughts on it.
Here's to anyone who's ever been cheated on... hear, hear!
WHY CHEATERS DON'T DESERVE TO BE FORGIVEN:
1) He didn't love you enough.
In this post I will refer to classic examples of cheaters as "he". Get used to it. I was cheated on by a guy, of COURSE I'm biased in thinking that most men think with their dicks. I'm speaking from first-hand experience.
How should I put this???
If your boyfriend / husband managed to ignore all his morals (if any) and whatever relationship value he had with you and shove his filthy wart-filled penis into another slut's punani, then he DEFINITELY DIDN'T LOVE YOU ENOUGH.
No self-respecting guy who treasures his girl would ever consider doing that to her, even if the passion has dulled and the relationship is a bore. The least a decent guy could do is to tell the girl it's not working out, end the relationship in truce, then he is free to go shag himself silly after that, nobody will really care. (although everyone will think you're an asshole)
But when your cheating boyfriend comes and begs you to forgive him because he didn't mean it and that he is sooooo sorry..
DON'T BELIEVE HIM.
Especially if it's not the first time - he's not sorry as sorry for cheating as he is for being caught.
Look, cheating is not an involuntary physical condition. It's a choice, and one that he MADE. At the expense of your trust and emotions.
Trust someone like that? No way.
I won't lie, I've found myself close-ish to cheating situations before, when I was facing very rocky times with my ex, I met nice and cute guys who offered a shoulder for me to cry on and there was once my lips were inches away from this very attractive guy's (yes cheating does not only consist of having sex. emotions things like kisses count too)
But you know what?
I didn't kiss one of the cutest guys I've ever gone out with. I THOUGHT about doing it, but 2 seconds after realizing how close I am to doing what I'm thinking about doing, the thought of it sickened me to the core and I found myself abruptly getting up to leave, before things got really ugly and messy, much to Mr Cute Guy's disappointment.
I can safely tell you that in EVERY cheater's mind, there will come a time where their conscience has a face off with temptation.
And it goes a little like this:
Temptation: Man that chick is looking mighty fine with her tits hangin' out for me to gawk at and all yo!
Conscience: What? How can you say that? You have a girlfriend.
Temptation: But my girlfriend ain't fineeee like that yo!!!
Conscience: Ew gross. What kind of a slut tries to seduce another chick's boyfriend like that? Grow up and go home to your girl. You're better than that.
Temptation: DUDE SHUT THE FUCK UP MAN I'M TRYING TO FEEL UP SOME TITTIES HERE!!!
....
Ok actually that was kinda optimistic.
More like it would've been:
Conscience: Dude you have a girlfriend waiting for you at home you know.
Temptation: Yeah but have you seen those gorgeous tits, man? END OF CONVERSATION.
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The point I'm trying to get at is - it's not entirely true when he says he only did it "because he wasn't thinking". Unless he is seriously retarded or in a coma, everyone's brains are functionally working every second of the day.
Perhaps he wasn't thinking STRAIGHT (obviously), he was definitely THINKING alright, because he consciously and readily made the decision of hurting your feelings in order to gain temporary relief and satisfaction.
He made a little mental evaluation in his head that sex with some hoe would bring him more gratification than his relationship with you. He made the decision that.... your feelings were irrelevant, and that his sexual desires are of much greater importance.
Before you rush into his arms again and think about forgiving him, think about how this fact makes you feel.
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2) He says he will never do it again.
Remember when he last said that a year ago?
No? He's never cheated on you before?
Well, do you remember when he said he would LOVE you?
Does cheating on you seem like good lovin' to you? (refer to point 1)
That's right. The answer is no.
I'm not saying your cheating ex didn't love you honey, I just said he didn't love you ENOUGH. What constitutes good, proper loving? I am in no position to tell you what your relationship needs, since everyone thinks of love in different ways. But as a well-grounded girl who's been in both healthy and unhealthy relationships, I can sure as hell say you don't need a lying horny selfish manipulative bastard in your life.
I remember when I was crying my eyes out in my mum's room asking her for advice, one lonely night 3 years ago. Nothing new, the same old "OMG HE LIED OMG WHAT SHOULD I DO?!"
She had a sad look in her eye when she said "Leopards never change their spots."
In other words, liars are manipulative blood suckers who feed off causing other people pain and the thrill of deceiving others successfully. Some people are just born this way.
Some people are born without legs, arms, sight, hearing, and some people are just born without the ability to love someone else wholeheartedly.
As hard as it is to fathom.... it's a cold hard fact.
If he can hurt you once, he can hurt you again. Nobody can tell you whether he truly WILL do it again or not, but let's just be safe and bet on the fact that he bloody will and save yourself some heartbreak, will ya?
Do you really wanna even risk going through all that emotional and physical pain again? When the person you love so much tears you apart and stomps on the shattered pieces of your fragile heart, the pain becomes physical.
Your chest feels so tight from the tugging pain in your heart (yes it really feels like someone is tugging on my heart strings and gripping my heart so very tightly in their hands), you can hardly think normally from the endless hours of crying and your eyes can't even open properly because they're swelled up from all the tears and even breathing seems like a chore.
I hate how men say, "But baby, it didn't mean anything, I swear!"
Well guess what asshole?!? IT MEANT SOMETHING TO ME.
A whole freakin lot, in fact. It hurt my feelings, cut me deep and erased whatever trust I ever had for you, does that mean ANYTHING to you at all? Can it not be about YOU and your penis or your non existent feelings for once?
It doesn't matter if it was only JUST that one time to you.
Cuz one time - that's all it takes for the image and knowledge of it occuring to haunt me for the rest of my life. Enough to make me cry a river of tears and feel worthless, thanks to you. So "one time" isn't a small deal to me like it is to you.
It was never about the physical activity you had going on with her.
It was always about the fact that you chose her, over me, your girlfriend, the one you supposedly "love".
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Of course, it's not easy to let go, and talk is cheap. I know. I was stuck in that situation for more than 2 years, cursing myself everyday for allowing myself to prolong the pain. But no pain, no gain.
And through this experience I've definitely gained some insight and first hand experience on how to deal with lying assholes.
I have also realized that it wasn't entirely his fault that the lies went on for so long. I should have stopped this one way train to self-destruction dead in its tracks when I had the chance the very first time I found out.
But no, like the world's biggest sucker I happily lapped up all his lies and whatever bullshit he chose to feed me with and in return, LIED to myself that HE wasn't lying.
Does that even make any sense???
I thought.... well, it's been a facade this whole time, so what if I continue living in this facade for a little whole longer? Couldn't hurt.
But everyone snaps out of self-denial eventually and the pain will hurt you harder than ever, because in the end you have nobody to blame but yourself. Which brings me to my next point.
3) It's NOT your fault, and you CAN'T fix him.
Whenever people ask, "Why are you still with him?" I give them a forced feeble smile but no answer. I utter a weak "Things are better now...." and in my head it continues, "But it's only a matter of time before things turn to shit again."
Self-denial is dangerous. Sometimes you lose track of what's happening in REALITY and what's being faked in your idealistic word.
I think, somewhere along the lines of being lied to a million times, I lost myself. I lost the anger, the strive to want to lead a better life and I ended up being submissive. Instead of blaming him, I started blaming myself.
...."What's wrong with me?! I've loved him unconditionally and tried to be the best girlfriend I can be - Why does he still not love me?
Am I not pretty enough? Does my personality suck? Am I boring, why would he fall for some other chick? Am I just NOT GOOD ENOUGH???
What the fuck is wrong with me?!?!!!!!"
And that is, in all honesty, the worst feeling you can get from being cheated on. When the pain settles in, when you resign to your miserable fate and instead of asking yourself "Why am I with this douchebag?" you ask....
"What's wrong with me?"
I spent ALL my remaining time blaming myself, and trying to fix him. Even though I never really told anyone I blamed myself, I did. Beneath that anger was a deep sadness I could never bring myself to express fully.
I tried to fix him.... I tried really, really hard. Tried to fix him so much that in return, I was broken. It was no longer a surprise whenever he lied. It was just like, "It's okay, if I keep loving him unconditionally, he will love me back someday."
It was almost as if it was a test to prove myself right. Like, HEY, don't worry, some day he will think you're worth something. You just gotta wait for the right moment. It wasn't even about him anymore.
It was about ME, and my need to make things better. My obsessive need to make sure everything was under control. That I had the ability to make things all right again. I think it's all part of being a Virgo (lol no I don't really believe in horoscope)
Needless to say, the moment never came. He wasn't Mr. Right, and in fact he wasn't even Mr. Right Now.
If I was so smitten, why did I dump him coldheartedly in the end? Well I can't really tell you exactly why, all I know is, one day I woke up going "FUCK THIS SHIT. I've had enough."
"It's not my fucking fault if this boy does not see a good girl dangling right before his eyes and chooses the whores instead. Tired of teaching him how to love, tired of teaching him how to be an honest, good person. I'm tired of mothering him, and I miss loving myself. I miss putting MYSELF before someone else. I miss me."
Forget about the good times we had and what we used to share. I want to look forward to the FUTURE, not back on the past, and even though I'm not sure what is in store for me out there, it'll be brighter than whatever we have now.
Contrary to what most other people believe, relationships are not just about the good times. Life isn't a sky full of rainbows, sooner or later you're going to experience worse days, then what? I can have a good time with ANYONE, even with the guy down the street, but does that mean I want to be his girlfriend? Everyone's nice when the situation is in their favour.
Judge a person not based on their good days, but on their off days. See if you still like that person when their mask comes off and they reveal who they truly are deep down inside.
What makes a relationship solid is when shit hits the fan, can you count on the other person to get your back?
If you can't.... bail.
Now, while you still can.
Don't make the same mistake I did.
Wow... if handwriting could ever "look" sad, this sure would be it.
5) And my final point?
Even if you think you can forgive him, chances are, one day your fascination with him is going to fade and you're going to wonder what the fuck you're doing with someone who doesn't appreciate you.
When you look at his face, you won't see the boy you knew when you first fell in love with him anymore. All you'll see is the face of a liar.
When you kiss him, you don't enjoy the intimacy - instead you feel grossed out because you can TASTE the nasty residue of that hoe whom he got down and dirty with, behind your back.
When he hugs you, you think of the same hands caressing someone else not so long ago and you feel FILTHY from head to toe.
When you look into his eyes, instead of seeing faith, warmth and trust, all you see is a black hole of emptiness. A reminder of what could've been... but never really was.
Every time he says he's going somewhere with someone, you scrutinize his facial expressions to try and see if he's telling you a lie. When he says, "I love you baby", you go "Yeah bloody right." in your head. Whenever he does something else wrong, it somehow always leads back to the time he lied to you and broke your heart.
Things can never be the same again. Time can cover up wounds but it will not change facts or erase memories.
Perhaps you can somehow bring yourself to forgive.... but you will never, EVER forget.
(case in point, years after breaking up with my ex I'm still rambling on about how cold hearted he is)
Don't punish yourself for the mistake he did. It's just not worth it. Love does not mean blindly caring for him unconditionally, if you're absolutely miserable in the relationship you're in at the moment, there's nothing wrong with wanting to stand up for yourself and pursue your own happiness for once....
DO IT.
If you were looking for an answer, I hope you have it now.
When I first started Shiberty's Sweets, nobody took me seriously.
I told people I was gonna bake and decorate pretty cakes and sell them online but I don't think anyone gave a shit. No one saw the potential of it, not even me...
2 months down the track, suddenly everyone around me is encouraging me to go start a retail SHOP selling my bakes.
"You go to University for what?? You should open a shop!!!"
And I seriously mean EVERYONE. My mum has said it, my grandmother has said it, Sam has considered it, so many people online have said they wanna see us do it, Janice and my brother approve of it and I can't believe I'm actually saying this but... SHOULD I REALLY DO IT?
I mean, when I first started I could barely pipe a flower properly (still can't do roses very well actually) but now I can create like over 10 different flowers and a lot of them are self-taught too. Of coz we can do a hell lot more than just flowers la.
I know it gets very boring to keep hearing me talk about Shiberty's Sweets. But it's a HUGE thing to me. I'm really proud of it and so pleased with all the joy it's managed to bring to the people who have seen or eaten our products. It's amazing to know a simple hobby can turn into me into a dedicated passionate worker. When your work is doing what you love, it doesn't feel like work at all.
For a home bakery I'm astonished at how much we can earn. And this is even when we are offering very competitive prices for the quality of work we produce.
I can't help but wonder... what if this goes COMMERCIAL?
Would our sales and hype skyrocket? We'd have the advantage of an extra real life crowd instead of just my readers, and well... Singaporeans love their desserts. I see pastries shops selling mediocre pastries that don't even taste that good, let alone look good and they're already doing well!
I have a lot of confidence that if I do start a shop it will do really well.
Mainly because..
There is no cupcake shop around in Singapore that specializes in design that has a RETAIL SHOP, at least, none that I've known of. Even if there are, we'd be one of the very few around. So competition is rather low. And I happen to have the advantage of an online audience.
You might not think it may be much but hey, where do you think all my customers came from? First it came from my readers and our audience spreaded to a larger crowd via word-by-mouth! Do not underestimate having social media influence.
I'll be frank and say that I've never actually came across a shop selling cupcakes before! Sure I've been to bakeries where there are a few muffins or plain cupcakes lying around with a dollop of frosting or two.
But I've never seen a whole shop dedicated to bringing you WELL-DESIGNED cupcakes, with fanciful decorations in loud colors. Designs you don't see everyday. Designs that you can customize to the very last degree! The cupcakes shops I've seen are expensive, boring and the worst part is they seem to have no creativity. They'd give fancy names to their cupcakes calling it Berry Nice but all it is is really just a cupcake with blueberry bits in it and white plain frosting plopped on top.
Like this berry nice meh?!?!?!
Where are the shops that offer you FUN and CRAZY cupcakes that makes people go Oooohhh Ahhhh WOW when they see them?
To me, a cupcake has to taste good, but most importantly it has to LOOK good. If your cupcake doesn't look good, then it has no worth because if it doesn't look good I wouldn't even wanna eat it in the first place right?
If people can say our cupcakes look so good that they can't even bear to eat it and they stare at it and camwhore take pics with it as if it was some sort of damn trophy they won from entering a contest, then in my opinion we have already succeeded. In this aspect, we don't only target people with sweet tooths.
We are also reaching out to an audience who normally do not eat sweet stuff but are tempted by our cupcakes because of how good it looks, and dare I say - most people are very weak-willed when it comes to yummy looking food and pretty frivolous things! Most peoples business run on catering to peoples demands. Whatever customer demand, they supply.
In our case, we actually CREATE that demand because you don't just wake up one day feeling like having a cupcake. More like, you take a look at a well-presented delicious cupcake going "OOOH!! I wouldn't mind one of those indeed!"
And of course, the next thing that pops into your head is the realization that you can customize your designs ANY DESIGN you like. Your brain then goes nuts thinking about all the designs you'd love to nomz on a cupcake.
That is our number one selling point.
We are not selling you flour and eggs in a cup. We are selling you our ARTWORK.
We are selling you our utmost effort, our unique creativity and designing flair, and our ability to provide all that for you at a competitive price.
And that is already reason enough for us to succeed. (WELL THIS IS ALL IN THEORY ANYWAY DON'T FLAME ME FOR BEING OVER MY HEAD OK)
Because, if you were to ask me,
"Hey Jess, where can I buy pretty cupcakes in Singapore?"
I wouldn't have a clue besides Shiberty's Sweets.
I know where you can get waffles, fruit cakes, pandan cake, cream puffs... The answer is anywhere and everywhere. You anyhow waltz into any bakery also can find.
The only creative cupcakes I've seen are from web stores and even so, most of them are made out of fondant. Can I be the first honest baker to say FONDANT TASTES LIKE FREAKING CRAP?????? It literally tastes like PLAY-DOH. It even feels and smells like play-doh.
That stuff looks really cool and you can mould a lot of things out of it but man, it tastes nasty. I always advise all my customers to pluck their fondant decorations off the cupcakes before biting into them because they turn rock hard over time when left to set and take shape.
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Ok now I'm just yabbering on about cupcakes stuff that you guys probably don't understand anymore.
WHAT I'M REALLY TRYING TO SAY IS.....
I'm just trying to reason with myself.... whether it's worth up giving up or postponing going to university in Perth.
You know, I'm not even going to be attending Curtin University directly, I'd be going to Curtin College for a year first before advancing to Curtin University itself, and if I want to complete my degree at Curtin Uni it'd take me a grand total of say 3-4 years?!!!?!?!
I CANNOT SEE MYSELF STUDYING FOR THE NEXT 4 YEARS!!!! I'm already itching to go out and start work and experience new things.
My initial plan was to go to Curtin College and take their 1 year diploma first, then figure out if I wanna advance to their degree after that year. The reason I cannot go straight to degree is because I got my diploma from MDIS (which was also a 1 year course) and is not enough to enter Australian universities as the diploma standards are different, so I don't need to take a FULL diploma course (which takes at least 2 years) but an entry level one or something like that la anyway all you have to know is I will be spending a year at Curtin College first.
But do you know 1 year at Curtin College costs close to 30k SGD?? THIRTY FUCKING THOUSAND YO!!! And this is NOT including extra costs such as Australia's high living expenses blah blah blah.
I dread to think about how much my degree will cost me. (or actually, my parents.)
I also don't think it's right to spend so much of my parents money on a degree I'm not even that determined to get anymore. :(
Since I'm not planning to finish my degree, or at least for now I don't think I will, it's rather pointless for me to even go to Curtin College. What's a 1 year diploma cert from Curtin going to prove? Curtin's a good and nice school and all but it's not even the top in Australia. Rather redundant if you ask me.
Suddenly I'm not so sure I even wanna go to Perth to study anymore.
I'll admit that the main reason I wanna go to Perth is NOT to study but to experience the lifestyle there. To take a break from Singapore and live in Down Under... but of course, if at the same time I can further my studies and get myself higher education so that if I ever wanna work in Perth, it's easier for me.
However now my vision is really hazy.
And I feel really guilty and reckless, because here I am, less than a month of my course starting and I feel like backing out already. Me, my mum and Sam have had to go through so much trouble just to get me through to this uni yet I'm thinking about giving it up. What's wrong with me?!?!
Although it's not so bad la since the course fee is refundable (as long as course hasn't started) they will deduct a minimal fee.
I'm not saying I WANT to give up going to uni just to stay behind and set up Shiberty's Sweets.
All I'm saying is, Shiberty's Sweets is a really good opportunity right now... Like a REALLY good one.
It may succeed brilliantly as planned, or it may fall flat on my face and squash me and all my hopes and dreams like a bug that never got to see the light of day. Who knows? All I know is, if I don't take jump at this now, I'm scared I won't get a chance to work as something I love doing anymore. I'm scared I'm going to go to curtin college and be guilt-tripped into completing my degree and then graduatefrom uni and become a full blown average working office person with a 9 to 5 job and be bored out of my fucking brains.
THAT IS MY WORST FEAR.
I don't see myself working with cupcakes the next 10 years so I might sell it off eventually if I ever do start it but I DEFINITELY cannot see myself being a normal working class person. I love money but money is not everything to me. If I'm miserable doing what I do then there is no fucking point because that money is not going to buy me fulfillment at all.
It is so so so important to me to be able to be my own person. And how bloody awesome would it be if I could set up a Shiberty's Sweets store? My own creation, my own cold sweat and blood and joy!!!!!!!!
Something I can call MY VERY OWN. My little brainchild *tickles it*
..Ok now that's just wrong lol.
But being my own boss sounds really appealing.
I'm really caught up with this because... it's really nice to see people appreciate what you do. And I don't think I've ever worked so hard for something before, worked so hard till my eyes can't even stay open, till my muscles ache from head to toe, till I cry my eyes out from all the stress and till my foreheads goes into full bloom with pimples. See this pic to know what I'm talking about.
If I'm really going to go to uni..... I might as well make full use of my cert. That probably means working with some fancy organization who's going to judge me based on a piece of paper stating my qualifications. Maybe I'm just narrow minded but that already sets off warning alarms in my head going
"NO!!! DON'T GO DOWN THAT PATH. You'll end up a middle aged woman sick of her mundane life and repeated scheduled activities, sick of her stupid job even though she lives in a nice house, married to an average husband but spends every second think about all the things she could've done when she was younger."
I'm young now.... perfect time to chase after my interests and do the things I wanna do right? If I ever wanna complete uni, it will be right there waiting for me. I can't say the same for this opportunity though. But there is also the question of what if I get sick of making cupcakes in 5 years time?
And then what? No degree, only a diploma from MDIS - Will I be able to get a different job then? My diploma is in mass comm lor totally no link to cupcakes please.
......Btw, telling me to go to uni first then start a shop is bloody pointless. I'm not going to pay over 60k AUD and get a degree just to come back to Singapore and sell cupcakes.
Plus, I have an advantage NOW. The hype around Shiberty's Sweets is still buzzing. Our name is still fresh in everyone's minds. The concept of designed cupcakes like ours is still very new and very fascinating to a lot of people.
A few years or months later, we may not have this advantage anymore.
I know setting up a shop is not easy. You need a lot of money, time, effort, research, employees you can trust, blah blah blah.... but I'm prepared to go through all that. Hardship was never an issue for me. I'm only worried the cons will outweigh the pros and that I'll regret not going to Perth and living an easier life.
If I thought life in Perth was going to be hard, life in Singapore with my own store will be A LOT harder. But it's the risk and experience that will make it that much more enriching, no?
Also, there's another problem. This decision won't only affect myself.
Sam has quit his well paying respectable job in Melbourne to come live with me in Singapore several months ago, thinking I'd go to Perth with him and move in together with him. Well, that was the plan.
Now that I'm *considering* not going to uni anymore... what's going to happen to the both of us?! I mean of course he'll still choose to stick with me but I think it's kinda unfair to him, that I made him wait so long but in the end we don't even get to move into a new house together as planned. If I start a retail shop, I'd definitely need his help as well so if we fail, that's 2 persons failing together!!!
Sam's not very young anymore. He's 24, and at his age working experience is very valuable. He's already wasted enough time mucking around waiting for me to come to a decision. I'd hate to waste another year or two of his trying out this store and having it fail, then FINALLY moving to Australia to stay. Sigh.
What does he think of all this?
Well he thinks it's a big fat risk, but one worth taking. He hasn't told me which to do or not to do yet, like me, he's confused too. We both see the good and bad in both situations. We're both excited about having our own store. We've actually discussed this a LONGGGGG time ago and it's so nerve wrecking to think it could actually come true soon!
I AM SO CONFUSED. Help???
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I HAVE SO LITTLE TIME TO DECIDE. Less than a week I'm meant to be in Perth already. It's a serious case of Now Or Never.
The beauty about creating content with your iPhone is that it's instant and so hassle free!!! Been taking pictures of everything around me (something I'm usually not bothered to with my DSLR) and Instagram just makes it so much more fun!
Random happenings in my life captured on my iphone:
This shelf in my room is carrying soooo many trinkets I'm almost afraid it might give way!!!
All these souvenirs / gifts were collected over years and are ALL so very precious to me ♥ You can't really see it but on top of this shelf is another one full of stuffed toys!!!! I wanna bring it all to Perth with me but I realize it's a silly idea :(
One reason I hate moving places: I have to throw so much of my stuff out!!!
But I like being a hoarder.
Sam sleeping like a baby hehehe!
And no, he doesn't sleep with that dog, I put the dog on him to take a picture LOL. He went from looking like a sleeping pig to almost sleeping-angel-like :)
This.... is my boyfriend shaving my legs for me, coz I can't be bothered to do so. :P
This is the point an alarm goes off inside your head, telling you to take a step back, observe your relationship and make a mental note:
"Okay. Our relationship has gone from romantic, to... comfortable."
What our rainbow cakes look like before we assemble them and stack em on top of each other!!! The random holes on the surface is when we poke chopsticks into the cake trying to check if they're cooked right LOL.
HAHAH I love this photo!!!!!
I posted this photo to Facebook and Twitter asking people to guess what it is and everyone was too shy to say "a dildo." even though I know everyone was thinking it!!
So what is it, really?? It's my newest toy!!! Love it.
.........A metal dildo, of course.
.....I kid. It's actually a metal rolling pin for my fondant experiments.
Yeah I'm not as interesting as you thought :(
My mum follows me on Facebook and when she saw it she's like "WWWHAHAAATTTTTT IS THIS" and I'm like "Chill, it's a rolling pin." then she gave me the o.O face and walked away.
My brother looks like this random poster guy from Ikea so much!!!!!!
Mr. Pudding sleeping ♥ ♥ ♥ Second most important male in my life :D
He's SO FREAKING ADORABLE!!!! Been spending extra quality time with him recently since I'm going away soon. I can tell he's getting more and more attached to me since we're having more play time but I think this is actually a bad thing since he's going to wonder why I left him when I move to Aus.
I love him sooo much, but I can't think of anyone to give him to when I leave, no one at home wants to take care of him....... T_T
The best way to spend a Sunday afternoon:
Going for brunch with your family, coming home to a playful hammie and lazing on the couch nomming on THIS heavenly tub of ice cream.
This + Swensen's Yam ice cream = DA BOMB. (does anyone still say that nowadays?)
Sam has been cooking so much recently!!! Here he cooked steak and cheesy potatoes mmmm look at the garlic cloves whole. Our cooking always has TONS of garlic + onions!! It's like the secret ingredient to every dish, really.
And this was my lunch he cooked today: Golden mushrooms drenched in sukiyaki sauce, wrapped with bacon and deep fried chips with Mcdonalds's curry + garlic chilli sauce.
Now you know why I'm so chubby!!!! When your bf cooks like this it's really inevitable.
He also made strawberry shortcake!!! Mmmm..
Now that we have Shiberty's Sweets, we hardly ever bake for fun or for personal consumption but this is one of the few occasions he decided to be extra nice!
A pair of pretty pink heels I found lying around, completely brand new, never worn before!!! I have another in black.
Super cute heart heel!! But I have this feeling it'd crumble under my weight as I'm crossing the road and something tragic would happen so I didn't wear it out in the end.
I have so much nice stuff stashed away, unused and unloved, I'm thinking of having a garage sale before I leave.. the only problem is, I don't have a garage, LOL. And online sales would take up too much time.
Joanne making a wish on the b'day cake I made her!!! The girls & Jun Kai came over to my place for a fun day to celebrate Joa's birthday and it was sooo good to see all of them again.
We chilled by the pool, took silly underwater pictures with hilarious poses, played classic board games such at Taboo (def one of my fav things to do at home), ordered a feast consisting of bbq stingray, pizza, hotplate tofu and whatnot.. good times! Even though we had our fights and misunderstandings along the way, the fact that after all these years we can all sit in my room and get along so well, laughing our asses off at the same old jokes as though it was just yesterday we were in school skipping classes and rebelling against teachers together.. says so much about how much these girls will always have a special place in my heart :)
The only bad thing that happened that day was I stupidly sliced my finger right open as I was decorating Joa's cake in the morning.
Instead of cutting Joanne's birthday cake into half to spread some cream inbetween, I cut my finger ALMOST into half!!!!! Note to self: stay away from sharp knives, and stay away from cutting things in the morning.
Morning drowsiness is dangerous indeed.
Ran into my room and poked Sam with my uncut hand and he saw the blood oooooozing out of the cut finger and he was like "WTF!! What happened?"
All I gave him was a sadface :( lol. Then he bandaged me up :')
Name bracelet I got from Isetan @ Shaw Centre!!! Near the McDonalds area :)
LOVE IT!
And yes I have hairy arms (and legs and underarms and upper lip HAHAHA). Don't judge!
Hung out with Wendy yesterday! Made a personalized batch of cupcakes for her (saving the pics for another time) in hues of pastel pinks and purple as a belated B'day present, and in return she bought us delish Delifrance egg mayo & tuna croissants!! Yum!
Oh and above is a photo of her frosting some cupcakes HAHAHA never thought I'd see her doing this. She actually found it all really fun! And unbeknownst to one of my customers, they ate 4 chocolate cupcakes frosted by Singapore's top blogger, LOL. I think she'd be great as a pastry artist because she's so creative.
Well then again... I may be wrong, looking at this cupcake she made for me :3
DON'T WORRY!! Your hair is still fabulously blonde.
I forgive her coz she brought Tinkerbell DVDs and we spent like 3 hours watching adorable mice pulling pixies around in carriages and watching Tinkerbell trying to gather pixie dust!!
Never thought I'd say this but Tinkerbell is actually a really entertaining movie(s) (there are sequels)
The graphics were surreal-looking and everything was sooo sparkly and fluffy. Funny jokes and decent childish storyline, all in all an awesome Disney production that I think should've made it on the silver screens instead of straight-to-DVD. Unfortunately halfway through the first movie we had to abandon it and go to the next one coz... "The disc is dirty".
Lolol inside joke. Sam's voice keeps playing in my head!!!! "the disc is dirty. the disc is dirty."
Wendy why your disc so dirty one!!!
xoxo, Jess
Hi. My name is Jessica, but I'm known as Shiberty. I'm 20 years old and I have purple hair like an eggplant, even though it's red in the above picture. I live in Singapore. I like to bake pretty cakes for special occasions, write all about my feelings & experiences on my blog, take a lot of pictures of my every day life, post my cooking on Instagram for people to salivate over and most recently... singing covers of my favorite songs on Youtube!!!
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